never have i ever | (chaesoo)

4

ROSÉ

Hiding my face in embarrassment as Lisa and Jisoo laughed at me after I basically just admitted to the entire world that yes, rising soloist Rosé, gives in to cuddles, I decided to take this time to properly look at the person sitting next to me.

Jisoo had always been beautiful, there is no doubt about that. She has the kind of face that demands you to look at her and her only, making me remember all the times I've had to roll my eyes every single time we went out and found people gawking at my girlfriend openly.

I mean, my ex-girlfriend.

Even now that it's been 9 years that we've known each other, Jisoo still has that youthful glow you would think a political thriller book author wouldn't have. But here she is, anyway: a political thriller book author that has such a youthful glow you wonder why she didn't end up becoming a model instead. So beautiful, with eyes shaped like crescent moons and heart-shaped lips. She's so beautiful, I almost forgot just how much.

Lisa snapped me out of my staring when she coughed loudly, making me snap my head in her direction immediately. She mouthed the words, "You alright?" to me, seeing that I got startled by the sudden sound. I just nodded and gave her a small smile, before turning back to my seat mate, who was now looking at me with concern in her eyes. I smiled at her, before whispering to tell her that I was fine. She smiled back at me before turning her attention back to the camera, almost forgetting that it was there recording our every move.

I wonder if I look anything like those people who used to openly gawk at my ex-girlfriend whenever we were out together on our dates. I probably do.

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"Time for the second question!", Lisa excitedly said. Her joy was infectious, I only found myself smiling along. I believe it was the same for Jisoo, as I saw her smiling wide when I took a moment to glance at her.

She's so beautiful when she smiles.

Lisa was fumbling with her notes, trying to find where she put her second question for this game. She had never been the organized one, that had always been Jisoo. It reminded me of that time all 3 of us lived together, and how Jisoo would grumble while arranging and organizing Lisa's things into proper piles, and how she scolds Lisa  all the time for it. She always complained to me about Lisa being a slob, but I also knew that she adored Lisa enough to do it for her every single time. It was an act of love, and I think Lisa knew this too.

I smiled at the memory.

"Ah! Here we go!", Lisa's voice filled the space. I watched as Jisoo leaned forward to put her elbow on her thigh as her cheek rested on the palm of her hand, seemingly eager and excited to know what the next question was going to be.

"Never have I ever lied to you", Lisa quickly said.

I thought about it for a moment, looking over to Jisoo who seemed pensive as well. Had I ever lied to this beautiful woman sitting next to me, the same woman I had loved for so long?

I thought about it a little bit more, before I finally decided on an answer.

"I have never", I said.

Lisa chuckled from behind the camera and said, "I'm surprised it took you a while to answer, Rosie. We all know you don't lie."

And maybe Lisa was right. I don't lie, and I would never lie to Jisoo. Not because I couldn't, but what reason do I have to?

I looked over to Jisoo, who was still lost in her thoughts, wondering why she was taking so long to answer.

Just then, Jisoo sat up and smiled brightly, looking at me and then back at the camera, before she said "I am proud to say that I have never!", she said with her whole chest.

I would have accepted that answer, but it seemed like Lisa had other ideas.

"Really?", Lisa said from behind the camera. "Why don't I believe that?"

I looked between Lisa and Jisoo with an eyebrow raised, wondering if there was something they both weren't telling me. But Jisoo looked just as confused as I was, and I figured that maybe Lisa was just teasing her best friend.

"I really have never", Jisoo defended herself.

Deciding to join in on Lisa's teasing, I answered Jisoo. "Really?"

"Really."

"Even during that time I decided to wear flashy clothes and you said I looked good despite how much you hate flashy things?"

"Yes. I was being completely honest!"

"Even during that time I tried to write a song for children and you said kids would love it even if you hated children?"

"I didn't lie there either!"

"Oh? Then what about the time you told me I looked really pretty?"

"Oh come on, why would I lie about that?"

"Because!", I laughed. "You've seen me in the mornings, Jisoo!"

I couldn't control my laughter. It was so fun and so easy to tease Jisoo. I was having my fun with teasing her until my ears perked up when I heard Jisoo mutter something under her breath that instantly made me stop laughing and caused my blood to run cold.

"And I've always thought you looked the most beautiful, Rosie. Especially in the mornings."

I looked at Jisoo, who was already looking at me with wide brown eyes. It reminded me of how these were the same pair of eyes I would look into every night before I fell asleep, and how these are the same pair of eyes that are telling me now that I've always been beautiful, even in my most vulnerable state.

Her gaze was overwhelming, I almost found it difficult to breathe. Because how could I be the most beautiful, when she is literally right here?

To make matters worse, Jisoo decided to continue.

"You always said that I was the prettiest girl in any room."

I could only nod. It was true, Jisoo is the prettiest girl in any room she walks into.

"That's true, but only until you walk in after me. Nobody is as beautiful as you, Rosie. And that's why I have never. I have never lied to you about how beautiful you are."

I felt my stomach erupt in butterflies as I started to feel lightheaded. My heart was beating against my chest in a way that I know I could suffer a heart attack right here and right now if I didn't get out of here. But it was as if I was glued to where I was, and the only thing I could do was stare deeper into Jisoo's eyes.

These were the same eyes I used to look into before I fell asleep.

These were the same eyes I used to look into before I kissed her.

These were the same eyes that whenever I looked into them, they hold so much love.

These were the same eyes I used to look into, the ones that always held universes inside of them and told me that I was at the center of it all.

Seeing that I was tongue tied, Jisoo's eyes turned into ones that looked at me with concern, before she mouthed "You ok?" to me. I finally snapped out of my daze and gave her a small nod, before I turned my attention back to the camera and seeing Lisa behind it with a smirk on her face.

"Happy with that answer, Rosie?", Lisa teased.

God, I want to hit Lisa so bad right now.