Soul Mark (breddy fanfic)

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"So, you just,- fooling around with your best friend for months.." Hyung nodded his head slowly like a good mock therapist he was. It's hard to keep his expression calm but he was trying to be kind to the clueless violinist.

"Yup"

"And now he ignores you,"

"Uh uh" Brett nodded.

"And.. You think this is because of your sexual relationship?"

Brett took a sharp breath, "I think this is because I touched him again when he's still injured, but maybe? I'm not sure. He'd never ignored me before, unless when it's exam week or other shits"

Hyung nodded wisely as if he understood, but secretively googled: how to be a sensitive listener, he'd surely need that right now, because what Brett said makes no sense at all for him.

"Uh.. I don't know, why didn't he just rejected you, if that's the case?" Hyung tried to reason with him.

Brett sighed as he took a swig of his beer that he bought with dinner. Hyung is right, and if his memory's correct Eddy seemed to like that too. So much, even.

"Then why,- I don't know." The small violinist pinched the bridge of his nose in distress, from the moment he met Eddy, the two had barely ever separated from one another, even when they were admitted to two different high schools, they'd manage to keep each other in touch somehow, heck they never even argued before!- well, only friendly ones, but still, "this sucks" Brett murmured.

Hyung frowned his brows, "uh, the beer or your relationship with Eddy?"

"Both" Brett answered half-heartedly, to be fair the beer tasted far more horrible, but this makes them even more perfect for his situation.

"Well, it's only been two days, right? Maybe he got busy,-"

"Not a single message, he doesn't even read them," Brett muttered like a kid, and now he's just sulking.

Hyung decided it was not the best to mention Eddy's ghosting on Brett, so he chose to alter the topic for Brett. "Well, to be fair, have you ever told him?"

"About what?"

"That you want him to be around, that you like him, love him" Hyung swayed his hand gently, prompting Brett to elaborate.

"I don't love him, I just.."

Brett paused for a moment, his hands froze on the air as if his brain just lagged in the middle of putting his thoughts into words.

Hyung coughed a little to bought him back to the earth. "Yes..?"

"I just want to keep him safe, make sure that he's not driving himself into oblivion," Brett closed his eyes, he could picture their fond memories from years and years of friendship dancing behind his eyelids, "I want to play music with him, he's not the best, but he always tries his hardest. And he's smart. Really smart. And funny. And I want to take care of him, he can't cook to save his life, and boy, how I enjoy our sexy times together." Brett threw an arm over his eyes, "I want to be present in his life, and he's in mine." He couldn't imagine his life without Eddy Chen! It's just never occured to him before, since Eddy was always answered to his call, but even only two days without Eddy beside him are dull and suffocating.

The room was filled with a pregnant pause after Brett's detailed description of how he felt towards Eddy. Was that normal for bros? He didn't know, he wished it was.

"Brett, if that is not love, I don't know what is" Hyung deadpanned at Brett, isn't it obvious?

The bespectacled violinist sighed heavily, "I guess I've been loving him all the time, then." Brett murmured to himself.