𝐆𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 // 𝐁𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐄𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡

51 ⋆ 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙩

lola's POV

"oh my god!" billie cries out as she sobs clutching a pillow to her chest intensely.

"hey, it's okay, your gonna be alright bil" i say holding her shoulders. not even i believed my own words so i doubted she did, but it was worth the try...

she, maggie and i all sat on her bed as we tried to calm billie down as much as possible.

but it was hardly working

she wouldn't stop crying... and crying.

and i've never felt so bad in my life. she's been through so much, this is the last thing she needed right now.

the absolute last thing

"no i'm not! what am i gonna do-" she looks up at us tears filling her eyes as she fails to keep composure over herself, and i didn't blame her at all.

i was still in complete shock, speechless even.

"we are going to figure this out... i know this is a lot for you baby, and i'm no less upset about it than you are" maggie tells her while she rubs billies back.

"i-im eighteen.. i'm not ready to give up my life for a whole other person. i've barely lived mine yet-" she sniffs.

"there's a real, living, human-being inside of me!" she says before starting to sob again and i wrap my arms around her.

this is gonna take a while to even process before we can fix it

and i understand where she's coming from. and everything she's expressing...

at the end of the day she's still just a kid

"i know..." i say softly by her shoulder while she hugs me.

"i'm gonna go.. get some water and pain killers for your headace" maggie says in a rush, like just talking about it was too overwhelming for her. she kisses billies head before standing up and leaving the room quickly..

we pull away from the hug and she looks down to fidget with her nails after wipping tears from her cheeks. she sniffs and laughs a little, sadly.

"there's no way im having brandon's baby... there's no way" she says and i can hear the tremble in her voice and see the unbelieving state in her eyes. i push part of her longer locks back so i can see her face and i bite my lip.

"you're the only person that can make the decision, billie.. you do know that, right?" i ask her, making sure her attention is on me and she nods.

"yeah.. i just don't know. i don't know... i'm so scared, lola" she says looking up at me.

"of?"

"keeping it. or not keeping it" she tells me. "either way im gonna be hurt or miserable. by keeping it im taking a huge part of my life away and if i don't.. i have to deal with the guilt of letting it go and having everyone find out and despise me for what i done" she says looking away.

"you don't have to make the decision exactly at this moment... think about it, sleep on it. we're here for you" i tell her, tilting my head as i look into her eyes.

"that's the issue.. the longer i take to decide, the more this...thing grows. i don't even know how far a long i am, i just-" she stops herself

and she closes her eyes to take a deep breath.

i can see the pain and hurt just radiate off of her

like she's losing herself

"don't think about everyone else, b.." i say softly. "only think about what's best for you"