Testing Fate 2/3

Tears

Josh POV

I pick up Colleen sobbing from the hallway. I am sobbing as well. I bring her into the family room and sit her on the couch. "Babe what did Dr Jansen say exactly?" I ask. "She said that the initial tests show I have signs of ovarian cancer cells but they need to do more at a specialist" she replies. "Okay babe I know the c word is a scary thing but lets wait til we panic it will make you sick" I say. "Josh I have cancer. Fucking cancer!!!!" Colleen screams and starts to run away. I grab her and hug her and she fights me for a bit and then crumbles in my arms uncontrollably sobbing. She grabs ahold of me and buries her face in my shoulders. I hold her tighter. I feel her pull away from me 30 seconds later and run to the sink and starts vomiting. "Baby, calm down Colleen, Please!!!" I beg her as I rub her back. She finally settles down and slides to the floor. "Josh I am gonna miss everything. My babies growing up. Please promise me you will take good care of them." she says. "Colleen Mae! You are not going anywhere baby" I say as I hug her. "Lets hear what the doctor says. When is the appointment?" I ask. She is calming down."Friday" she says. "Okay. Lets go get the kids Colleen. We need to carry on with our regular schedules otherwise we will dwell on this until then ok?" I say rubbing her back. "Lets go spend time with the kids" she says.

Colleen POV

I am devastated but Josh is right. We need to carry on. This might not be anything but when I hear the word cancer it freaked me out. We are holding hands. Josh is being stronger than I thought he could be. He is so helpful like always. I grab his hand and he lifts it up and kisses it as we drive over to Rachels. The kids are all outside on the lawn playing with Matt and Rachel. We get out of the car and I thank Rachel and hug her and Matt. Josh and I get the kids into our car and we go to the beach. Josh knows the beach makes me happy so we sit on the beach with the sunseting. I am relaxed and calm. "Thanks babe for bringing me here. I feel so much calmer" I say and snuggle into him. "I am glad Colleen. I love you and we will get through this like we have everything else. Our love is unconquerable. I refuse to loose" he says. I felt stronger listerning to his words. I have never seen him so together in a difficult situation. I am so proud and happy he is by my side.