Us Again (Russo Series 1)

Chapter 50

Chapter 50

I let out another sigh.

I sometimes wish that she's not this strong, not this though. Kayang-kaya niya akong tiisin. Kahit na noon pa man. Ako ang umalis pero hindi ako nawalan ng balita sa kanya. Pero siya, taon man ang lumipas ay kayang-kaya niyang hindi magkaroon ng kahit na anong balita tungkol sa akin.

"I'll only come back if you'll come with me." Ngayon ay siya na naman ang huminga ng malalim. Lumabas ang bahagyang usok sa kaniyang bibig dahil sa lamig. Umamba akong isusuot sa kaniya ang panlamig ko pero umangal agad siya. "'Wag mong ilihis ang usapan."

"I'm not. I just want to-"

"I don't need your jacket. I'm not that cold and I'm already wearing a good one."

Napatingin tuloy ako sa suot niyang jacket na nakapatong sa kaniyang bestida. Damn! See? She's just always ready that my offers would be invalid.

"You should go back to Manila," ulit niya.

"I said I'll only come back if you'll come with me-"

"And that won't happen!" mariing saad niya. I can clearly see how she's trying to control her temper, she really had a bad one.

"Umuwi ka na. Hindi kita kailangan dito..." malamig niyang sinabi. That hurts. "But I need you."

"Primo! Can you even hear yourself? Paanong nagagawa mong unahin ang sarili mo habang alam mo na naghihintay sa iyo sa Maynila ang anak mo?!" pagalit niyang tanong.

What?!

I needed a seconds to understand her wording. I understand now. I fucking understand now.

Hindi ko alam kung nakahinga ba ako ng maluwag, matatawa o madidismaya sa nalaman.

She left me... and that is just because of her misconception. Umalis siya sa mismong araw na muling nakipag-usap sakin si Crisana para anak nito. Samantha overheard our conversation, a piece of it actually. And from that piece, she concluded that I am Troy's father. Damn!

It's not because of our parents issue, nor a question of her love for me. I can't think that she don't love me anymore. I am very selfish at that part. I always think that she love me, no question needed. Only that her love for me wasn't enough to make everything fine.

She doesn't want complications. Not that I want it but even with complications, I chose to always choose her... love her. And I made it my responsibility to fix such circumstances. I just want her to focus on loving me.

"What the hell are you smirking at?" she yelled. Sa lalim ng iniisip ay hindi ko namalayang natatawa na pala ako.

Her curious pair of eyes were all on me. Probably wondering why my face is plastered with annoying smirk. "Damn it, sweetheart. You should have just told me," naiiling kong sabi. "I missed you for days just because of the fallacy of yours..."

I looked at her, curious with all the words coming out of my mouth.

"What are you talking about? It seems so funny you can't stop smiling like an idiot," she snorted.

"It's not even a damn dime funny, sweetheart. But I don't know how to react to your misconception."

"Pwede bang sabihin mo na lang? H'wag kang puro ngiti diyan-"

"I am not his father." I cut her off. Naiwan sa ere ang nakabukas niyang bibig para sana sa sasabihin.

"You're lying..."

"Apparently, I am not."

So, by now, you should know that there's no point for running.

"But I-I heard you... No, Primo, that can't be... How c-come? You're not Crisana's son's father?" Laglag panga niyang ulit sa sinabi ko.