Donatello, I Can't

Chapter 2

  I walked out of Donny's lab the next morning. I walked out and shivered. I jumped when Saphira cleared her throat, " I was just about to bring you this." She handed me a black blanket that was softer than a cloud. I snuggled in it. SHe picked my face up and moved it side to side then smelled it. She huffed angrily, " Why were you crying Lilly?"

  I froze and stuttered, " I..It's  nothing. One of the.... comic books I just got in is a new issue and it was sad." I faked a smile.

  She grabbed my wrist and I was hard to not wince. She dragged me to an empty room and threw me on the bed. She grabbed my gloves and took them off. She saw my bandaged arms and used her claws to cut them off carefully as to not cut me.

  She pointed after growling at my arms, " Answer! Now!"

  I started to cry, and I could only say this short answer, " Emma is here and she is still my bully."

  She went into a turtle form, making me jump back and hugged me. I melted into her, but froze and tried to pull away, " I don't want Donny to walk in."

  She smiled sweetly, but then frowned, " You are going to have to tell him sooner or later. I locked the door. I am going to take you to Donny or you tell him now." She shifted back to a humanoid form.

 I sighed, got up and headed to the door. I ran to the lab with my gloves being the only thing keeping the truth hidden. I stopped at the door and knocked.

  I waited for an answer, " Come in." I heard him yawn and get up. I opened the door and he brightened up. " You know, you don't have to knock unless I tell you, you have to before going in here."

  I gave a nervous laugh and he stepped towards me, " What's wrong Lilly?"

  I stepped back. He stepped forward and I went back again. He started to come closer. I went further back until I hit the wall. It hit my wrists first. I yelped and fell to the ground. Donny rushed over. I looked up at him.

 I sighed before slowly pulling off my gloves and answering him, " Before you came over yesturday, Emma came into my comic book store again and gave her friends a show in making fun of me. For the past three years sinse I moved here from California, she has made it her job to torment me. She called me an ugly ass, little slut. She said you were my pimp. When she said that I snapped and closed the shop for the day. I rushed home. April saw me. I locked and closed everything up and took a pair of scissors and did this."

  I pulled off my gloves at last when I finished. I put my head down, " Why did you think this was okay Lilly?"

  I didn't look up as he carefully grabbed the tops of my hands to pull my wrists closer to his face, " Some of my friends used to say it helped them. I snapped and wondered if it actually worked. "

  I was going to continue when he pulled my face to look up at him, " Trust me when I say that it feels good now, but later, it will seem like a huge mistake." I tried to pull away. " Don't ru......."

  I interupted him and finally pulled my face free, " No, you don't! What would you know about this."

  He sighed and pulled off his wrist wrappings. What lied beneath made me gasp. I saw all the lighter colored lines that were covering his wrists. There were so many. They looked like they wee so deep before. I looked to him and he answered as he put his wrappings back on, " I used to be in love with April. She was my girlfriend. About two years ago, she said I was too protective after I saved her from a giant alley cat that was mutated and tried to make her his fidth victim. She was convinced that she had it under control even though she was later in the hospital for a week from her injuries. I couldn't take it. I locked my door adn took my hidden blde to my wrists to try and ease my pain. I regret that now. I should have talked to someone. This will be there for the rest of my life and it reminds me of my biggest lesson. A woman is free, she doesn't want to be too protected."

  I started crying and mumbled." I never had that. What I wouldn't give for it."

  I hoped he didn't hear me, but he did. He lifted my head up by my chin to face him. He came a little closer and said in a smooth voice, " I could give you that."

  He looked at my lips as I looked from his lips to his eyes. They slowly closed as he came closer. He pressed his lips to mine. His lips were warm and sweet. I melted into his arms. He was almost the only thing keeping me up. He put his hands on my hips as I let him slip his tounge into my mouth. He was sweet and it felt as if he caressed me. I put my arms around his neck and he arched me back. We almost fell and he put his right arm out aginst the wall, but still held me close.

  He chuckled and put his forehead to mine. Our heads shot to the lab entrance when we heard a kid move a little. It was Jack, Mikey's and Saphira's first kid. He smiled goofily like his father does, then took off yelling like his father used to do, " Hey, Uncle Donny has a girlfriend. Lilly and Donny, sitting......"

  He trailed of and I swung by arms back and he hung his head down, I laughed and he set me upright. He put my gloves on me and we walked out hand in hand.