Tame The Untamed (Married To A Psycho) ✅

~CHAPTER SEVENTEEN~

Xiao zhan POV

I understand very well after my mother's death, everyth changed, but then my mother told me never pay evil with evil, show them kindness and they will one day come to understand that whatever they were doing was not right at all, they will learn their mistake and treat you right.

I am the firstborn, though we are not from the same mother, before my mother's death, we used to play together, even if maybe they had malicious thoughts towards me, they never even once showed it to me. Evil will never win, i held no resentment towards them even if all of them hates me, people might think I am stupid and foolish, but i will never try to get revenge of what they did to me, but then when my own uncle and step brother raped me infront of my step mother who only laughed and smiled instead of stopping them. I was hurt, very hurt, i even doubted my mother's words, but i will never disrespect or go against my mother's words.

Honestly when i heard my sister committed suicide, it was such a deep blow for me, i suddenly lost consciousness, after waking up honestly i felt a little bit of relief and happiness, i knew this is very bad, i shouldn't be so excited because, rose is my sister. I closed my eye's and took a deep, i know it's wrong, very wrong.

"Mother forgive me, your son has really failed you, I am hurt about rose sudden death, but then at the same time I am happy. Mother i don't know what's happening to me?" I said worried, i stiffened when i felt two strong arms around my waist, i know the cologne, it's very familiar and i love that smell so much.

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"Don't be sad and promise me not to be angry with what I am about to tell you, I am your husband and i will never keep a secret from you." Yibo said gently, xiao zhan was touched with wang yibos words, since coming to this house, wang yibo has been treating him very well, he told him everything he does, even his past, he is so pitiful, getting poisoned when he was very young, he even informed xiao zhan who was behind the poisoning and the origin of the poison, xiao zhan was very sad and angry at the same time, his own family how could they be so cruel to someone like wang yibo?.

"Why are you always so good to me? I really don't know how to feel right now. If one day you came to know something very bad and disgusting happened to me, will you continue being so good to me?" Zhan asked, yibo smiled and kissed xiao zhan forehead.

"No matter what happens, i will forever trust you and be by your side, i always keep my promises." Yibo answered making xiao zhan to choke on his sob.

"So what if, i...I am no longer clean, I am already dirty, not just  dirty but very dirty." Zhan asked again, yibo expression didn't change, he was still smiling.

"I will never leave you, in my eyes your always my good and beautiful partner, whatever happened, wang yibo your husband doesn't care, remember what i told you, you can tell me anything." Yibo answered again, zhan wiped his tears away, his heart is very conflicted right now, he doesn't remember the last time he met with someone as good as wang yibo apart from his mom.

"B-but, you know i. ....i." Zhan wanted to say the truth, but he couldn't, rather he hugged wang yibo and cried bitterly, yibo felt the pain, he could feel it clearly. He will not force xiao zhan to say anything, he will wait for him to speak up. Yibo stayed with xiao zhan for an hour, no one said a word, zhan got up, his eyes were already puffy and red because of crying, he forced a smile.

"I am going to the showeroom to wash my face, i will be right back." Zhan said and turned around to leave, xiao zhan closed the door from behind, his face turned even more pale, he felt disgusted and nauseated, running towards the sink, zhan vomited every content from his stomach.

"I am really a hoe, disgusting person, I am completely disgusted by myself, so dirty, I am very dirty, everywhere is dirty, if i wasn't born, maybe then my baby could have survived year's ago, i even caused an innocent child's death! I deserve to die, because it hurts a lot, my heart really hurts, i. ..i need to feel better, I don't want to live in pain again." Xiao zhan said in tears, looking at his hands, the marks that he caused, were almost dissapearing, he needs it, he needs it now. Looking around zhan saw a surgical blade, picking it up with his trembling hand, xiao zhan smiled.

"Atleast this will make me feel better and not in pain." Zhan whispered and cut his wrist, blood started trickling, zhan closed his eye's, it feels better and so good, he really has no reason to live, his eyes started getting heavy, he wanted to sleep, a sleep he will never want to wake up. Zhan fall down on the floor that was already covered in blood, the noise alerted wang yibo, who rushed towards the showeroom, but then the door was closed from inside.