In Love With A Cereal Killer [Book 1] (On Hold)

~Chapter 46 Do I Love Him?

Lui POV

I sigh as I explained my situation with David to Arlan. He pulled me closer to him, rubbing my arm up and down to comfort me. "Listen Lui...I need you to answer a question for me and I want you to answer it truthfully" Arlan stated. I nodded in agreement, "okay, what's the question" I asked, tilting my head sideways.

Alran looked me straight in the eye, "do you...do you love him, Lui" Arlan questioned. I was silent for moment, "..of course, why is that even a question" I asked. "Lui.....you're lying to me" he whispered and my eyes widened. "WHAT, no, no, I do love him, Arlan" I replied, a bit shocked.

Arlan shook his head, "Lui, you're lying to me and you're lying to yourself...do you..truly love him Lui" Arlan asked. I paused, not knowing why he's questioning my love for David. "Arlan, I already told you, I-" he cut me off. "What you said wasn't genuine, when I first asked you, if you loved him, you hesitated, you were questioning your own feelings...you were questioning if you still love him or not" Arlan stated.

My eyes widened, "n-no, that's not true" I denied. "If it's not true then why did you hesitate..." Arlan asked. I stayed silent, I looked away from him, "Lui, look at me and tell me that you love him" he mumbled. I moved my gaze towards him, "I....I don't know..." I murmured.

He's right, I don't know if I can love him anymore. Especially when it's obvious that his love for me, disappeared after the car accident. He most likely only sees me as a friend, a tear escaped the corner of my eye "Lui..please don't cry" Arlan whispered, trying to comfort me.

I began crying, "he doesn't love me....no one loves me..." I whispered. "That's not true" Arlan stated, I looked him in the eye. My eyes widen as I felt his lips against mine, he pulled away. "I do" he whispered, I grinned at him softly, pulled him in for another kiss.

We makeout for three minutes straight before deciding to stop and think. Did I...did I just cheat on David with Arlan, my eyes widen at the realization. "W-what am I going to tell David" I whispered, having a mini panic attack. "What is there to say" Arlan whispered back, "are you going to keep chasing a spooked horse that will never stop running or are you going to realize that horse isn't going to come back in a long while and chasing it is only going to make it worse" Arlan explained.

I nodded at him, a bit surprised at his choice of words. "If you truly do love him, you wouldn't have been here with me in the first place, you would've been with him trying to work things out" Arlan stated. I sat there, shutting my lips tight, not allowing words to slip out.

Arlan pushed his back against the couch, staring up at the ceiling. "You know Lui, it's been so long since I last saw you and I thought I would never see you again since you wanted nothing to do with this place but even after you left, I never stopped loving you" Arlan whispered the last part. I stared at him, my eyes sparkling with wonder.

My mouth was wide open from his words, "Arlan...you loved me for that long" I asked. He said nothing and stayed quiet, "why didn't you say anything before" I mumbled. "I....I was afraid, I mean, you were already leaving at the time when I realized it and to confess to you how I feel after you were leaving, I was scared that would ruin our friendship completely....turns out, even though I never told you, it felt like you abandoned me for it..I regretted not telling you that day" Alran explained to me.

It was then I started to understand him more clearly. I let out a breath I didn't know was there, "Arlan...you should have told me, I wouldn't have left you if I knew you had feelings for me...I had feelings for you too.....after I left, I was heartbroken but I knew I had to move on" I replied.

I sighed, "the day David confess to me that he had feelings for me, I was shocked but a bit flattered but I just couldn't just accept them....after all, I still had feelings for you...but when he was about to give up on his feelings for me, I knew I had to do something, I wanted to move on from you so that's why I kissed him that day" I explained the whole thing.

There was silence for moment, "...I did love him, there's no question about that but do I love him now...I don't know" I muttered. "Well, let me ask you a question, do you love me and would you push David aside for me" Arlan questioned. I stared at him, "I love you Arlan...its just hard to move on from someone you learned to love so much, I don't want to break his heart but then again, it probably won't matter to him since he doesn't remember the relationship we had together anyway" I replied.

Arlan put his hand on top of mine, squeezing it a little bit. We stared into each other's eyes in a loving way, we leaned in, kissing each other passionately. I pushed him down on the couch and crawled on top of his lap.

I bit my lip, looking at the position we're in. It wasn't long that things started to get intense and my clothes were being ripped off my body. I didn't think about the consequences that might come to this. I just did it, not caring if this was a mistake or not, cause it felt so right to me.

Lui has given up on David and it looks like Lui has found himself a new love interest or should I say an old love interest. A love interest that he didn't expect feelings for that person would be flooding back to him. What is he going to tell David after this, how will David react to it. I guess you'll have to find out in future chapters. I hope yall enjoyed this chapter, stay tuned for more. Bye, Bye. 🤐👋

~BlueWolf203