Dearest Enemy {Miya Atsumu}

XXI

When I woke up today I didn't think that my day would be so... frustrating. I arrived at my school and everyone was looking at me and whispering, I wasn't understanding anything then I found Samu and Suna, I asked what's happening but they didn't have to answer, in front of me I see Atsumu holding his hands with Miyuki... I thought he didn't like her but now he's dating her, the weirdest thing is: why my heart is beating with sadness? I should be happy for him but I don't feel it

"Hikari, Hikari, Kari, Kyo!" Samu screamed my name, I looked at him confused "Are you... okay?" I laughed. Why wouldn't be? I had never been more at a loss to make my feelings appear what they were not. It was necessary to laugh, when I would rather have cried.

"Yes, I guess" he don't sound convinced but he gently pulled my back to we go to our classroom, when we sit, Megu approached me

"Morning Kyo, I'm so sorry about what happened, if you want to hang out or something, you can tell me" I asked her what happened to me "Atsumu broke up with you to stay with Miyumi, aren't you sad?"

"But Tsumu and I, we never dated"

"You don't!? I'm sorry for believing in these rumors, the whole school is talking about it" she apologized again and left, why my day turned upside down like this? And why my heart is beating so fast?

Our Literature class started "Today we'll talk about The Divine Comedy, Kyo it's good to see you again, could you please summarize the book?" Why today? Why me?

"It all ended in her eyes. Hell. Purgatory. Paradise"

"Could you please, explain it?"

"When Beatrice died, Dante didn't..." my heart hurts "He didn't gave up on her, his love was so strong that he went through hell, purgatory, and paradise just to be with... the woman he loves" some random girl said that it was too insensitive of our teacher to ask me to talk about it "I didn't date him" I angrily said and sit down

When the class ended I was going to the infirmary but my teacher stopped me

"Hikari I would like to remind you, that your assignment is really important, if you don't do it you'll fail my subject" he said and left, my day only is getting worse...

The nurse said that I was okay but my heartbeats were faster than normal, I have to take it easy today and if it gets worst I should go home... how can I do this if today is so chaotic..?

I come back to my class, Osamu looked worried at me but didn't say anything, I prefer like this. During lunch break Tsumu don't join us, my teammates tried to distract me but it's impossible to don't noticing the eyes on me. I want to go home...

I can't understand, friends don't talk about it? He should have told me about his feelings for her, right? I can't fucking get why I'm so bothered about it

At least at practice, no one can disturb me like this, I can have a little bit of peace, that was what I thought. When I entered the gym I went to the water fountain to fulfill the bottles, then I heard voices

"Atsumu you came!" I looked at their direction

"Yeah you sent me a message to come here, what do you need-" she jumped on his arms and she was about to kiss him, I can't look at this, I'm feeling dizzy, my head is empty and I can't hear anything, I walked back to the court, I talked with the coach saying I'm not feeling good to play today

While my teammates played, all I could hear was the shouts Mayumi as doing, I can't think about anything and my whole body hurts, when the break started I didn't even realize it, Kita had to call my name a couple of times to help me, Miyuki told him she could do my job but he said it wasn't necessary and asked her to lower her voice.

When the practice was about to ended I left the gym to catch more towels, like always, when Miyuki approached me, I guess I should stopped looking for towels, always something bad happen

"You know that I and Atsumu are dating now, right?" I nodded "So as a good friend I know you're you should stay away from him, I would be mad if you stole his attention and he would get sad, you don't want to see him sad right?" I nodded again "I'm glad you agreed, you're a good friend considering his feelings in the first place" then she left

I guess that's my only option, we're friends and I want him to be happy, but why my eyes are heavy and my heart is almost screaming? This should be hell.

I entered my house, closed the door, and sit on the ground, I texted Nami saying I need to talk, she instantly called me

"What happened? You never say you need to talk" I sighed and explained how was my day, it's normal for me to tell everything to Nami, about my trip, about my friends, about Atsumu... "I don't even know what to say"

"Don't worry I just needed to talk with someone, the strangest part it's that my heart hurts and I don't know why, it's racing too fast the whole day, my mind is also empty, I wish you were here to hug you..."

"Are you sure? Like your heart feels like it's going to explode or something?"

"Yes, but it's nothing, I talked with the nurse and she said it's nothing to worry about"

"Oh Hikari, I can't believe you..." she sighed "so brilliant and so dumb at the same time" I asked what was she talking about, "I think you have to know the answer by yourself, just don't do anything imprudent and follow your heart, before you start a war you better know what you're fighting for"

"I still don't get what you're saying"

"Our science teacher always said about you 'she's truly a scientist, for her is too easy to explain the universe but it's too hard to explain what's she's feeling' I agree with her"

"I think I'm too dumb today, it's not just my heart, my mind broke as well" she laughed

"You'll understand soon" we talked for a couple of minutes and I fell asleep on the ground.

I didn't dream about anything, even during my sleep I could feel that my body was tense. I was so stressed that I was half awake half asleep. Then I finally dreamed... I was with Nami and Lizzie at the beach, the Sun was shining brightly I could feel my heart beating with joy but suddenly I looked at the sky and started to rain, I tried to call my friends to go home but they weren't there anymore, I didn't know the way back to my house so I sit on the sand in silence waiting for someone to appear... but no ones come and I was fulled by the feeling of loneliness.