Dearest Enemy {Miya Atsumu}

XXII

I told Manami I would take care of everything but I just messed everything up. I told Miyuki I would stay away from Atsumu, but that means I would have to stay away from Samu and Suna too, lately, my days had been quiet and lonely, it didn't happen since I started to study here.

My teammates tried to talk with me but I only said it was nothing and that I was ok, it's not a lie since I don't know what I'm feeling.

Every day I woke up, go to class, sleep during lunchtime, help the boys during practice and go home, that silence annoys me, sounds like I'm in a kind of limbo or purgatory, nothing happens, nothing changes. I haven't been sleeping very well. I miss my friends... There is no greater sorrow than to recall our time of joy in wretchedness...

I looked at myself in the mirror "Maybe I'm paying for all the innocent and perfect things that I doubt, the bruises I cause and tears, for all the things that I've done all these years..." I sighed then looked at the photo of me, Lizzie and Nami together

"You wouldn't like to see me like this, right? Maybe I have to change it"

It's Thursday night, I should go do something like... go to the cinema, I love to do this, and today a new movie is released. I changed my clothes, but the clothes I used to wear in the U.S.A, a cropped that shows my collarbone and jogger pants with boots, I miss wearing this. I also wore sunglasses, cause why not?

I arrived at the cinema, when I was buying my ticket, not too far from me, I noticed Atsumu with his girlfriend and he notices me too, he was walking in my direction, I'm wearing sunglasses how he recognized me? Oh, shit, my clothes. My heart is beating so fast all of sudden

"Please give a ticket of something that already began, now, please" she gave it to me and I ran to the room, I sit. The movie looks like an epoch style starring Anne Hathaway and she's a writer... it's seems that the cinema is showing movies about real writers during this week

Wait a damn minute, JANE FUCKING AUSTIN? The writer of Prejudice and Pride? what a lucky day... I already paid for the ticket now I have to watch it and if I leave the room Atsumu could be outside yet. At least James Mcavoy is in the movie, he's so pretty

"His heart will stop when he sees you or he don't want to live, I know it's a contradiction" Jane said, that sounds familiar

Looking at Tom wandering for the first time into the woods makes me remember my first time, I was worst than him, I laughed too loud but thankfully it was only me in the room. After that arguing, I started to respect Jane

"Romance should show the origin of our feelings" my... feelings? I should try to discover my feelings, I've been avoiding to name what I feel, for too long. Nami always said that art helps us to understand our feeling but I refuse to hear Jane Austen.

"Love is a shy flower that takes time to bloom" that's so inconclusive, how much time? Love... love... love

While she and Tom dance looking at each other's eyes, you can feel their love through their sight, they spoke without even saying a word looking for the answers in each other's souls, Tom has a habit to always look into her eyes, like Atsumu...

"You have to know what I feel, I'm yours with my body and soul" my heart beats fast like when I saw Tsumu earlier, What's the reason? I can't pay attention to the movie, think, Hikari, serotonin, emotions, vasodilator. What happened in that scene? They talked about love, it makes my heart race but it never happened before so... NO

I stand up and left the room angrily "c'est pourquoi je la déteste" (that's why I hate her) I screamed "je ne veux pas tomber amoreuse" (I don't want to fall in love)

"I didn't thought a movie could make someone so angry" It was Osamu, Rin was next to him

"What you're doing here?"

"That's what you ask? I should ask what you're wearing and what you're doing here without inviting me or Suna to watch it with you" he teased me "well, but I don't think we would want to watch something that makes you angry" I laughed

"How did you knew I was here?"

"My brother saw you, so we're waiting for you here since we arrived"

"You shouldn't do this, this movie was too long"

"Wanna go Mc Donald's?" I nodded, while we walked in silent my thoughts didn't stop running

"Do you mind telling me what makes you so quiet?" Suna asked and I sighed

"Do you ever played chess?" He denied but Samu said yes "there's a play called the queen's gambit, you have to sacrifice the queen to win the game"

"There's one thing I remember when my grandpa teach me once, in chess there isn't only one way the game, that's why it's wonderful" I looked at him and he smiled

We ordered our foods, after eating we decided to watch something in my house, I need to forget that terrible movie

"Can we talk about what you're wearing? Kita would kill you" Rintaro teased me

"I didn't thought I would find someone I knew, so I wore the clothes I used to wear in the U.S.A, it isn't a problem to show a little bit my scar, everyone already knew about that"

"Sunglasses, Hikari?" Samu raised his eyebrows

"It's a disguise"

"You know that there aren't too many redheads in this town, right?" I should have thought about it...

We bought a lot of fries to eat while we watch a movie, they let me choose so I pick Clueless. They didn't complain, what good friends.

"I'm Cher but which one of you is Tai and Dionne?" I asked

"What kind of question is that? Of course, I'm Dionne" Samu answered

"I don't mind to be Tai, can I be a redhead like you Kari?" I nodded

"You would be the badass bitch of our school Rin" we laughed

Minutes later...

"Ok, but it isn't too strange that she ends with her stepbrother?" Samu said

"The magic of the movie is ignoring this part..." I stand up "it's too late to walk in the street, do you want to sleep here? There's two guest rooms"

"That was the smartest thing you said the whole day" Suna teased me and I punch his arm, after showering I showed them my room "you know that's it isn't normal for a teenager having so many books, right" I laughed

"That's the photo we took on our trip together, with the fox Shu? You didn't send it for us" I apologized "then send it to know, I want this photo in my room to" I did what Samu said

Kari
*Attachment: 1 image*
Samu asked
I forgot to sent
Sorry

They looked at their phones and thanked me

Shin-chan
Hikari
Don't tell you two are together
At this hour

Kari

No

Samumu
No

Rin
No

"You're dumb or what? Now he knows that three of us are together"

"Sorry I'm already too sleepy" Rintaro said

Shin-chan
Go to sleep now
To your beds
Thank you for the photo
I miss Shu

We completely ignored what Kita said and we started to play videogames...