Only Know You Love Him When You Let Him Go

Alexander was happily dating John. Everything was fine. Then it wasn't. John dumps him without telling him anything. But it gets better for him. He falls for his roommate. Sure, cheesy romance film esque, but he was happy. it took so long to find it after the breakup.
After breaking up with Alexander, John was fine. He was free from a clingy and sometimes idiotic boyfriend. But when he begins to see Alexander going out and falling in love with Thomas Jefferson of all people, it breaks his heart. He realizes too late, that he let the love of his life slip through his fingers. He grows depressed, he lost his only friends and his love. He was truly alone.

TRIGGER WARNINGS
implied/ referenced Rape/non con
Self harm
smut
homophobic/transphobic slurs
major character death