Suicidal thoughts
My heart and mind seems like it has been beaten to a pulp
Cause I started to feel numb,
And it feels like there's a hollow
That I don't know if I could take another blow
T'was so hard to keep my tears at bay,
And its harder to stop the lingering whimpers, I can surely say
The longer that I stay, the more pain that I have to endure
Too many medicines have been made, but this pain has still no cure
To kill my own self than to get emotionally killed , I think it's better
Then have my last words for them written in a letter
Already tried to close my eyes then stop myself from breathing
But I frustratingly failed, and now I'm still painfully living
Itching to make some handful of cuts in my wrist
So I would feel some physical pain at least
This numbing emotional pain was far more worst than any other pains
Physical pain heals, but emotionally speaking, it fucking remains
Suicidal thoughts aren't that bad
When you are in the state that you are lividly mad
And when the word sad is an understatement
Cause it's more on moribund which is definitely most appropriate
Thinking about hanging myself with a rope or anything that can be in use will be fine
And inside our house is the perfect place to execute this brainsick idea of mine
As it has nothing else there but woebegone it only bestows
And done nothing but only worsen these tedious distress and sorrows
Does having suicidal thoughts makes me a bad person?
Am I just rebelling for nonsensical reason?
If being fed up of everything wasn't reasonable enough
Then I'm scared that I don't care at all, I would just laugh
If a tree falls and no one's around to see it, does it make a sound?
Definitely it does, even when no one witnessed it, I can only expound
What about my pain that no one understands as they're not experiencing it?
Are my suicidal thoughts invalid still?,well fuck it and just mind your own shit
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Elegies
PoesíaOverflowing emotions will trigger your hands to write on their own and eventually you're obliviously writing poems already. Write down what you feel, until it hurts no more.
