least expected

10; im sorry

hueningkai pov

me, yeonjun, taehyun, beomgyu and soobin were all entering the airport on our way to new york for our first performance of all our songs (including wish list) from our new album blue hour. soobin and me were walking side by side. the management said me and soobin need to act like nothing happened between us or the fans and reporters would be suspicious.

as we were walking towards the entrance for our flight with the others close behind us soobin suddenly mumbled something while glancing at me then looked straight ahead again. i couldn't hear him cause of his black mask he was wearing.

"what?" i asked looking at him confused, my voice coming muffled too cause i was wearing also wearing a black mask. "i said i'm sorry ningning." soobin said glancing at me with regret clear on his face. "why are you sorry?" i asked soobin. we all walked through baggage check and put all our stuff on the conveyor belt one by one. me putting my things on it first.

"for everything," soobin said helping me put my few plushies i brought with me. "for being crazy, for being stupid and selfish and," soobin put my huge tobin bunny and my suitcase, which were my last things, on the conveyer belt for me. "for breaking up with you." soobin said. my eyes widened at what he just said. "what did you just say?" i asked him shocked. he walked a little closer to me and said, "don't worry i'm not trying to get back together with you cause i know you're," he gulped and looked like it was physically to say, "happy with yeonjun."

"but i just wanted to let you know that when we broke up i was only thinking about our group and your career, and my duty as leader." he sighed. "i sometimes have so much pressure on me and so much responsibility that i sometimes forget that i'm just a boy, a boy who got lucky. i forgot that we're not just two kpop members, but just two boys that fell in love." by the time soobin was done talking he had tears running down his face. i was crying too. i ran to soobin and tackle hugged him.

"i'm sorry too, i didn't realize how miserable you are. i'm sorry that i was selfish and forgot the position you are in." i said my voice breaking and sniffled still hugging him. soobin pulled away from our hug and looked me in the face smiling sadly. "i love you huening kai, i always will, and always have. "

"me too soobinne." i giggled. "can we still be friends?" i asked soobin looking at him with hopeful eyes. "of course kai." we wiped our tears and went to flight entrance door where the others were waiting.

as soobin was about to walk through the door first he turned around and said, "and by the way, if we could redo that break up i would have rather risked everything then break up with you." he then walked through the door. i smiled happily to myself, my heart feeling full and warm and walked through the flight door.

if only i'd known as i got on the plane that when we would be in the new york soobin would make a decision to do something that would destroy everything, for everyone, including himself.

to be continued

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and for anyone wondering if soobin was telling kai the truth, yes he was.