Die Arthia

B i l a n g LXXXVI

"Good morning Arthia!" I groaned when lady Cecilà opened my curtain and the sun heat hit my face. I turn around to hide fron the sun but her loud voice made me awake. "Wake up. Nag-tawag ako ng botique. You like shopping right?!" Seems like she's the one who likes shopping.

I opened my eyes and the ceiling of children with bow and little wings greeted my eyes. Lady Cecilà told me that it is called angel of God. She also told me that the child inside me is an angel. I don't know if I'll believe her myths. It sounds like a lie.

Has she seen an actual angel of God?

"You're looking pale. You need make up and.." She look at my stomach. I look at my stomach as I sit on my bed. I still can't belive there's a human inside me. It doesn't even show. "You should refrain using corset, you'll hurt your baby." She said. She's now sitting on the couch and looking at magazines. I rolled my eyes and stand up. I saw my reflection on the vanity mirror. I almost didn't recognized myself! I look awful!

Does having a child makes you ugly?

"You should wear something like this.." She showed me a sketch of a dress from the magazine. Simple and very.. tacky. I rolled my eyes. "Something comfortable."

"No."

"Come one Arthia! You'll hurt the baby!" She groaned. I sighed and try to at least fixed my hair. It's longer than my previous life. Should I cut it?

Servants knock on the door and came inside. They bath me and lady Cecilà waited for me. When I came back after my bath, there's already people sitting on my couch. I looked at them, I got their attention.

"Arthia!" When was the last time she adressed me properly? I rolled my eyes at lady Cecilà. "This is Aden, and this is lady Susan, the designer!" She said proudly. I slowly walk there and sit on the center.

"G-greetings.. u-uh..?" The designer doesn't know how will she adress me. I coughed and look away. Figure it yourself.

"This is l-lady Arthia Laissè. Quee-- The.. most respected lady of Empire Elvish." I wrinkled my forehead on the man infront of me. Levi told me that this is his adviser and he is managing this Empire for me, Aden.

My eyes drifted to lady Cecilà. She giggled while talking to.. I think the designer's assistant. I nodded.

"Greetings." I said formally, without a humor.

"It's a pleasure to be chosen as your tailor for this season." She said and even bow her head a little.

I leaned on the couch.

"Right, I want a grand dress for my morning stroll and ballgown for my dinne--"

"A comfortable dress for lady who carries a child." Lady Cecilà barged in. I glared at her. She smiled at me. I just rolled my eyes and crossed my arms on my chest.

I watch them talk about my dress and such.

"When are we going back to Guibàsh?" I asked lady Cecilà while we're having a tea on my veranda. She looked at me.

"Wala pang balita." I nodded.

"He succeeded." When lady Cecilà glanced at me I saw fears and pain on her eyes. "He'll have my back no matter what I do, like he always does." I said. She nodded slowly.

"He succeeded.." She nodded trying to convince herself. A faimiliar fear came, it just passed by.

Fear is scared of me.

"Did someone told you that he'll succeed but you will never be by his side?" Slowly I nodded remembering the peasant. How did she know that?

Lady Cecilà seems to know everything. Who is she?

"I was told the same thing.. and I wasn't able to prevent it." She confessed. Pain is very evident on her voice. "And.. I don't want you to feel the same pain I felt losing Brandon." She shook her head as if she's trying to convince me on something. "Arthia, you are capable of love." She held my hand and I stiffened. "You are now.."

"J-just.." I stopped when I noticed that i'm trembling. "Just who are you to predict everything?!" I asked, anger is with my voice. I harshly pulled my hand back and she looks startled. I rolled my eyes on her.

"Your baby.." She looked at my stomach. "Why don't you get rid of it?" She asked. Now she looks angry too. "Because you care for it!" She answered her own question, leaving me startled.

With my heart racing so fast, tears fell from my eyes.

"W-why.. why are you d-doing this to me?" I asked and wipe my tears. "Why are you telling me things I prevent to notice?!" I shouted. She was startled and I stood up. "I never want any emotions! It was the author of my very downfall! I never.. I never want those affections.. so stop.." I stopped before I break down.

This is not funny anymore.

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