Die Arthia

B i l a n g LVIII

"You l-love me?" I asked. I don't know why my voice shattered. He shook his head while chuckling as if he's enjoying what he is seeing.

"I do Tia." He said, he suddenly became serious.

I laughed at him. You can't fool me Levi, I know you're just curious. You're curious how far my anger will reach.

He raised his brow when he saw me laughing.

"Do you want to marry me then?" I asked. Suddenly image of Lady Inos flashed on my face.

Levi did not answer and is just watching my expression, I never felt so intimidated before. I looked away.

"Marry Lady Inos and rule the country." I said.

I don't know why my heart suddenly ache. It's not like I did not want what I said, I just don't know what i'm feeling.

He did not answer again so I look at him. He slowly smiled at if he read what's on my mind. He slowly nodded and stood up.

"Alright." He said. "I have work, I'll see you later tonight." I look at him, our eyes met. "Let's have dinner." I did not answer and stayed with poker face as I watch him leave.

I smiled slowly.

"You should've ask me to marry you." I said while looking at him, waiting for him to disappear in my sight. "I might say.. yes." I whispered. He disappeared from my sight. "Because you said you love me."

I laughed at my self.

The old Arthia wanted to be loved, I almost forgot. But what's the difference of me and that Arthia?

When Levi said that he love me I almost got  carried away.

"You should've save me before." I whispered as tear fell from my eyes.

I suddenly felt miserable.

I look at down on my shaky hand. I want to stop my anger and vegeance, I want to stay quiet now and be with Levi, just because he told me he love me.

I laughed.

Foolish. That fallen Arthia and I wasn't different at all.

All this time, the affection that I tried to avoid was the only answer on my contentment.

I shook my head.

You can't be that Arthia anymore or you'll just be another failure. Think of your mother, your mother was betrayed by her husband. You never receive love from your father and you died in his hand.

Don't fall apart again because of the same thing, that single word. Love.

When I felt irritated with my thought I annoyingly throw a tantrun and throw the tea set on the table. I can heard them shattering. The servants from afar got alerted and run to me.

"Aaaahhh!" I shouted all my frustration as I ruin the table. I even push it to fall.

"L-lady!" I look at Aira, I gave her a death stare telling her not to move an inch or I'll kill her.

I wasn't contented, I even kicked the chair.

I shouted again, I can feel my tears falling from my eyes. I don't know why i'm crying. I'm so frustrated.

And Levi, that man left after confessing, he didn't even answer my question!

I bit my lower lip, I suddenly feel weak after shouting and throwing stuffs. I sat on the ground with my dress. I watched the grass get swayed near me.

"My, what is this?" I heard a laugh but I was busy glaring at the dancing grass to know who is that lady who dared to interupt me now that I'm furious. "Lady Arthia right?" I glared at her.

Cecilà, probably a year older or we're just the same age.

She offered her hand on me with a big smile flastered on her face. She has a green eyes and brown hair, very common.

I just looked at her hand and stand up myself. I heard her laugh and look at the servants.

I started to walk away not minding her. I don't like her, she's smiling at me as if we are friends and Levi knows her before me.

"Where are you going Lady Arthia?" He asked, I heard her murmured something to herself but I wasn't able to hear her. I heard her footsteps behind me.

"You're also a wandering soul, aren't you?" I stopped, I slowly look at her. My heart started to race fast as if I got caught on something. She smiled. "You're the lady on the prophecy huh?" She chuckled. "The other lady."

"Prophecy what?" I asked.

She just shook her head and laughed annoyingly. I wrinkled my forehead. "If I were you, I'll enjoy my days with the prince, because.." She stopped then tap my shoulder, I look at her hands on my shoulder. "You'll die again."

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