Die Arthia

B i l a n g LV

"Brandon this is a lot!" She shouted when she saw boxes of clothes and shoes in her room.

"Isn't that is what you want?" I asked. "Expensive clothing and jewelries?" I open a box of dress near me.

"I was just kidding and you--argh!" It looks like she doesn't know what she'll say. I walk to her and hug her head. I kiss her hair, smells like Freesia.

"When you asked if you can choose the most expensive dress I told you no, now that I'm giving you the finest in the country you said it's too much?" I asked.

I don't have anything before and I don't want her to look like those noble lady. But now, I have everything, I want to give her all of it, because she deserves it.

She stayed with me when I have nothing, and she's still with me when I have the world, what can I do?

"Tomorrow is my 21th birthday, I want you there." I said. "I'll announce you to the world." I whispered to her ears. I heard her sighed to I look at her.

"I-i'm just a commoner, w-what will people say a-about you?" She asked. I laughed.

"I don't care what people will say, and I already bought you a noble title since I know you'll react that way."

Maybe I became alive when Cecilà showed me her smile. When she showered me with sincerity that no one gave me.

Cecilà is not just my partner or lover, she's something more than that.

Cecilà is my reason.

"Wear this." I gave her a silk dark green dress, reminds me of her eyes. Modest that suits her very well. "See you tomorrow."  I kissed her forehead before leaving her room.

I smiled.

All the murders I did was worth it, if I get to live with Cecilà even I'm a murderer, I'm fine with that, as long as she's besides me.

Leaving her room that night was another mistake of me, if I had known I should've stayed there with her.

I look around when I didn't see Cecilà on the crowd. I immediately got anxious.

Where did she go?

I suddenly have a bad feeling for this.

I remembered the peasant and her nonsense. It's just a nonsense why would I remember that now?

I walked out of the hall knowing it's a banquet for me. I went to her room but she's not there. I run around the huge mansion but she's not there.

My heart is racing so fast.

Cecilà won't leave me, I'm confident. Something might have happened to her, and that's why I'm anxious.

My feet drive me to the garden. I saw a familiar brown hair.

"Cecilà!" I called her. She did not look at me. The moon's light is shinning brightly. I sighed.

I calmed a bit when I saw it's really her.

I smiled as I walk to her.

"Cecilà." I whispered her name, she's wearing the dress I gave her. When I'm near her, I was about to call her name again when she look at me. My eyes widened when I saw tears in her eyes.

"Brandon." She called my name.

"What's wrong?" I asked, I was about to hold her hand when she moved back. She showed me her hands while she's crying.

"Brandon.." She called my name as she fell on the ground. I was caught off guard with what I saw that I didn't get a chance to catch her. "Brandon." She cried again.

I look at her hands. When I realized what's happening I tried to grab it but all I had was a dusk.

"C-cecilà!" I called her name with my shaky voice. "W-what's happening with you?" I asked, she did not answer me. I look at the dusk on my hand then look at her crying face.

This is a dream, a nightmare.

"Brandon, I don't wanna go." She said crying. "I-i d-don't want to leave you a-alone a-again!" She shouted while crying. "So why is this happening?!" I didn't know I was also crying with her.

I don't know what's happening, she's slowly turning into dusk infront of me.

What do I do?

"Cecilà, d-don't go." I said as if it'll do something to help her.

My whole body is shaking, this nightmare feels so real.

Cecilà once look at me crying.

"Brandon." She said. "I l-love you, i-if.." She sobs more. I held her face. "If t-this is the last time." I shook my head. "N-no, I'll probably be back!" She said with so much determination while crying.

It's just breaking my heart more. I don't know what I'll do.

"J-just don't leave." I said and kissed her.

"Wait f-for me, I'll be b-back." She said crying between our kissing. "I-i promise, I-i won't let you be a-alone a-again." She said shaking. "S-so don't be s-scared, I'll be b-back, even i-if it means d-dying again. I will, a-at all cost. I-i love you Brandon." She said, her voice is shaky, she's obviously scared yet she's telling me not to.

My eyes is wide open as I watch the person infront of me turn into dusk.

I sat there for a while.

Why am I not waking up?

I want to go to Cecilà's room and hug her.

Why won't I wake up in this nightmare?

The wind blows, dusk infront of me danced with the wind.

A tear fell from my eyes, that's when I realize that I lost Cecilà, my only reason to live.

The flowers in the garden, the moon and the quiet tree is a witness, they witness how I lost my first love.

I took out the small box on my pocket.

"Y-you promised you wom't leave m-me." I said crying looking at the small ring sitting inside the box. I clenched my fist and cried on the cold ground.

I should've became curious about her. I should've asked her where did she really came from. Maybe if I did, I'll have a solution to this. I was confident that she won't leave me then.

I was 18 when she came to my life and asked me live, now I'm 22, I lost my first love, and the only thing I know about her is her name.

All my life, all I did was wait for her because she's scared that I'll be alone and she promised me she'll be back.

Funny how she thinks of me even when she's already disappearing.

I look at the woman infront of me, she looks like the painting of the girl in my bedroom.

I closed my eyes when I realized a thing.

Her promise wasn't broken.

"Cecilà." I whispered her name.

It's been a long time since I said that name, but it doesn't sound foreign, maybe because in my dreams every night, I've been calling her.

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