Scandalous Affair: Oliver Valez

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L I B E R T Y   K I N G S

"Why?" 

I gulped and my throat painfully intact with my heart. It hurts seeing him cry. Oliver's onyx eyes are full of despair and agony. I felt like I was the most hated man on earth. Parang ako na yata ang pinakamakasalanang tao ngayon but I need to do this. As much as I wanted to be selfish and hold onto his heart forever, I know I can't. 

Mas lalo ko lamang siyang masasaktan kung magpapatuloy kaming dalawa.

Oliver reached for my hand. His shaking and cold hands are holding into mine tightly like he never want to let go. 

"We need to stop this. Alam nating dalawang wala itong patutunguhan."

My heart broke as I look at his tears rolling down from his eyes to his cheeks. He's vulnerable right now, so raw, and weak and it hurts that I'm the reason for it. With my free hand, I swipe his tears and look at him straight.

"We knew it from the start. We knew that our love is a sin."

"How can loving you become a sin, Liberty?"

I could feel my heart ache a little more from what he said. How can our love become a sin? Why does it so difficult to answer? Maybe, there is no answer at all. Paano nga bang naging kasalanan ang magmahal kung ang pagmamahal ay regalo sa 'ting ng Panginoon?

"You love the wrong person, Oliver..." my tear fell as I admitted the only answer I could find. 

I am the wrong one here, matagal ko nang tanggap 'yon. Wala namang kasalanan o pagkukulang si Oliver. He is more than what I need in my life and I'm blessed that I met him. Ako ang mali sa kaniyang buhay. Ako ang hahatak sa kaniya pababa.

I'll be his downfall.

And I don't want that to happen. Just seeing him hurt right now pains me but I know that it will be worth it. Wala nang sisira at mananakit sa kaniya. Hindi na sila magkakaroon ng alitan ni Olivia. Hindi na sila masisira. I'll be saving him from a greater pain than this breakup. I will be also a great ate and daughter for my family. That how it should be. 

Pero ang sakit.

"My heart says you're not. I'm already old, Liberty and my heart has been already tested for a long time. I know who is the woman I love. You are far from being the wrong person."

I could hear the cracking sound in my heart. How can such an amazing man love me so much? How can he when I can't even love myself fully? 

"I-I'll just bring you down." a sob escaped from my shivering lips.

"Then let's both lift each other." his hold tightens, "we can make way, Kitten. Come on..."

I smiled sadly at him and removed his hold to my hands, "perhaps you're right but it will leave scars and I don't want you to have it, Oliver." 

"You don't deserve that."

Oliver cupped my face, his eyes full of tears are looking at me directly—searching for my soul. "I don't care what I deserve, you are more than enough for me." 

"Even if you put lots of scars in my heart it will still beat for you, Liberty."

I cry more. How can he love so selflessly?

"I don't want that, Oliver. That's why I'm breaking up with you." 

As I said those words I could feel my heart sinking deeper and deeper—drowning in never-ending despair. Inalis ko ang kaniyang mga kamay sa 'king mukha at tinalikuran siya. I hated turning my back on him but there is no other way. Kailangan ko siyang talikuran para sa ikabubuti naming dalawa.