Broken Then Fixed: Gruvia

Chapter 5:

I woke up in Jamie's room. I sighed. I would often wake up in here, trying to remember our fun times together before he got taken. It had become a habit after he was taken, and I was not about to let go of it that easily. I then remembered Gray's recording. I got worried that Lyon would find out about it. I couldn't talk to Gray either because of my punishment.

I went to my room and got my stuff together. I then realized I never did my homework. The teachers know about Jamie and my situation so they gave me a pass for all of my homework, but I still completed it all, much to their dismay. I sighed, knowing they would give me a pass for it. I couldn't stand the pity I received from everyone.

Everyone saying "her brother went missing, she must be so sad" or "I hope she's okay, after what happened" just pissed me off. I hate pity, and I hate that everyone just assumes things about me. Of course I'm sad, I even sometimes wish to kill myself because I know it's my fault he goes through this, but I know that Jamie would be even more upset if he came home to find his big sister dead. That hurts me more than any physical or emotional pain Lyon puts me through.

I hurry into school, in which Gray tries to talk to me. He knows about the punishment, because of the recording and all, but we need to make it look like he didn't. I ignored him and walk away to first period, happy that I wouldn't have to face him until third.

I greet Gajeel and Lucy, who are in my first period. Lucy is amazing at math, so I usually don't take many notes in this class because she helps me every other day after school. The teacher knows this and has seen my tests and assignments, so he allows me to read or look out the window as long as I'm quiet and don't disturb the class.

I glance over at Lucy, who is busy scribbling away in her blue notebook. That's her third one this year I think, and we are only about halfway through the year. I also took a glance at Gajeel, who is looking glum. He always looks glum though, because him and his girlfriend Levy are in different classes for this period. Lucy and I always have Levy over for girl time or sleepovers. She's a part of our group, and we love to tease her about Gajeel and work on petty pranks for our boyfriends.

Lucy has a crush on a boy named Natsu, who is friends with Levy and Gray. He's a dense idiot, but she says that's what makes him so cute and adorable. We play pranks on him too, with the excuse that we prank all of the boys in our group. The only boys in our group are him, Gajeel, and Gray anyways, so it's a perfect cover up.

I looked out the window, staring at the clouds. Lucy had gotten me hooked on pointing out what the clouds look like. It may seem childish, but it passes the time and it's really fun. I need to use my imagination for something after all.

So far I had spotted a fox and a whale, and possibly a hammer. I got bored and looked in the opposite direction, below me. My class was on the second floor, so I could see cars and trees, and a person walking their dog on the sidewalk. I looked closer to see what kind of dog it was. It turned out to be my neighbor walking her black and tan australian kelpie named Ezra. I waved a little to say hi, and she waved back. There was a girl named Erza who was the school president, and I found it funny how her and the dog had a similar name. I wouldn't dare tell her that though. She's scary when she's mad.

I looked around my classroom to make sure I hadn't accidently distracted a classmate because of sudden movement. I seemed to be good, so I started to quietly take my notebook out and draw a fox. My cloud gazing had given me the idea to draw it. I had just finished sketching the fox when the bell rang. I closed my notebook and got my books ready to go to english, my second period class. Gajeel waited outside for me since we also had that class together. Lucy had already left for her astronomy class. It was one of her electives for the year.

We started walking down the hall. We had ten minutes to get to class, but it only took half that time to get to the classroom, so we were in no rush.

"Juvia, are you okay? Gray is really concerned because you've been acting a little weird. I also heard that you guys broke up. I thought you loved him?" Gajeel suddenly asked me. I froze, hearing my ex's name.

"Of course I still love him! And I'm not okay. Jamie's life is in the hands of Lyon and I don't know what to do!"

That is what I wanted to say. Instead, I once again lied. "Yes I'm fine. Just worried about my little brother. I haven't gotten much sleep, and Gray and I had a little problem and we needed space. Everything is gonna be fine Gajeel. Thank you for worrying about me!" I gave him a small smile that I prayed would convince him. He nodded and didn't speak again.

I don't know how my heart is still intact, because it breaks it to lie to them. And I've been forced to lie to them countless times. I don't know how they will forgive me when they find out about all of my lies.

I was disgusted with myself. I had let Jamie get kidnapped, I'm basically giving Lyon what he wants, I'm lying to Gray and my closest friends, and I don't have a single part of a plan figured out. I guess I'm not going to be paying attention to proper sentences and verbs-to-be, today.