It isn't your decision *D.M*

5. Malfoy

In the common room I want to head to my dorm but Adrian pulls me close to him again.

"Let's rest together on the couch for a while" he whispers into my ear.
I give him a nod and follow him to the black velvet couch. I want to sit down next to him but before I an even think about this he places me on his lap.

I don't want to but I get uncomfortable in this position, my body tenses and I can't pay attention to the things Adrian is telling me.
When he grabs my hand and intervenes our fingers I look at him.

"You know Izzy, I'm really sorry. But you have to know I won't ever do anything that you don't want me to. I really like you, and I will find a way to protect you from Flint. I don't care if he's the captain. No girl deserves this"

"It's fine, Adrian. I can't expect from you to risk your place in the team. I guess after today Marcus will stay away. I really like you too" I smile at him and look down to our hands. I start circling my thumb on the back of his hand. He wraps his arm around me and places my head in the crock of his neck.

He smells so good, but I can't get Malfoy out of my head. Why are my thoughts permanently at him, yes he helped me out but I really like Adrian. And I know tomorrow Malfoy will be a total dick again.

"I have to talk to Daphne. I've been gone since way longer than a Quidditch session now. Sorry" I get up but he pulls me back and plants a kiss on my lips. This time it's way longer and deeper. My hand wanders to his neck and I pull him even closer to deepen the kiss to a maximum. But then he pulls away.

"Okay, see you" he says while he kind of pushes me off his lap.

What was this about, why? It was his idea.

When I get to my dorm I expect Daphne reading a book or something but when I open the door I see-

"Oliver?" I didn't want to think out loud but I'm in shock.

"Uhm Izzy hi." He stumbles while getting down from my sister.

"I guess I'll just leave again. It's okay, I'm fine. See you" I leave the room again, my blood rushed into my cheeks and now I feel so embarrassed.

I decide to take a walk, just down to Hagrid's hut and then back to the castle again.

The fresh air did it's thing and I feel way better now. I'm on my way to the Great Hall when I see Pansy walking next to Malfoy. He's clearly not interested in talking to her and I get a bit faster to hear their conversation. Or Pansy trying to talk to Malfoy.

"Pleaseeeee Dracoooo, just one walk. It's not a date nobody has to know. Only we. I'm begging you" she is literally begging for him to agree.

"Parkinson how often do I have to tell you to piss off. I don't want to spend time with you even if it's just a minute. Now leave!"  Malfoy really doesn't like her, seems like we have something in common.

They reach the Great Hall only seconds before me and I make my way to my place next to Daphne. But Oliver took my place, he gives me an innocent smile and Adrian winks at me. I sit down next to him, and he plants a kiss on my cheek.

"How lovely, seems like Pucey is about to loose his virginity" it's Malfoy.

He sits down beside me and we just ignore him. I kicked Adrian under the table so he doesn't answer. It's just ridiculous what Draco is doing.

Draco stayed quiet and just watched our every moves. It was creepy but still better than Flint watching me.

"Psst, Greengrass? I've heard Flint is at the Hospital wing. Don't you owe me a thank you?" He says so quiet that only I can hear him.

"Yeah, thank you. Malfoy for ruining my first kiss! I'm really thankful." I don't even try to say this quiet I almost yell at him and the whole table locks at me.

I get up without any further word and the only thing i hear is Adrian "don't you dare to follow her Malfoy!"

"Or what Pucey you can't even protect her!"

I really hope that Malfoy didn't follow me- or do I want him to follow me?
I don't know what he does to me, but in his presence I feel safe, why does he make me feel safe. He makes my life even more difficult as it already is.

I don't know where to go now, and because I kind of want Draco to find me I head to the Astronomy tower. Adrian isn't going to search me or at least he isn't going to find me up there. I really like him but he's so soft I guess he doesn't understand me well, he doesn't understand what I want.

When I arrive at the Astronomy tower I sit down at the rim of the balcony and let my legs dangle trough the thin metal rods.
I hear someone stepping inside but as long as it isn't Flint I won't care. I still didn't talk to Daphne about everything and my best friend doesn't know anything either.

"Isabel-" I don't even listen further to the person it's Malfoy and again he calls me by my full name. Why does he keep doing this? Is it really that satisfying to annoy me.

"Piss off Malfoy, I don't know what you could possibly want from me." I didn't mean to snap at him that way but it's what he does to me. I hate him but I also really like his presence, his smell. I can't think about what I would do to run my fingers trough his hair while holding deep eye contact with him.

"What are you doing? Are you trying to kill yourself? You know this isn't safe" why is he so calm, I snapped at him without a cause and he act's like he doesn't care at all.

"It's none of your business. I just want to be alone, please" I really don't want to why do I keep lying to him.

"I know you don't want to, come over here and we talk about everything? Deal?" I nod and crawl backwards to get my legs back inside

He sits down beside me and i keep my eyes locked on the moon.

"Look Isa- Izzy. " I don't let him end his sentence.

"What are you doing to me? Fuck Malfoy what is it that makes me want to kiss you and kill you at the same time? I don't know myself like this. I really like Adrian but I can't keep my mind at him. No matter what I do I always think of you." I realise what I said and I regret it instantly.

"Um no just- just forget about this. This here right now never happened yes? Okay thank you. I- I yeah... um have to go. Bye" during my word I get up to leave but the door- the door is locked. "Let me out Malfoy. This isn't funny"

" I swear to god I don't have my wand with me. It had to be a professor who locked the tower so no students go up here. But Uhm I guess we're stuck here now." I turn back around to face him and a smirk which you can't un see is spread across his face.

"But finally I have the time to talk to you, to answer your questions. Sit down, you know it's going to be a long night, Isabel" why keeps stuff like this happening to me. Daphne will kill me.

I sit down on the cold stone floor beside him, but there is much space between us even Hagrid could place his self in the gap.