Well, 2020 is nearly [or is actually] over and I kinda wanted to self-reflect/talk about this past year.
(also forgive me, I watched i'm thinking of ending things last night so it may get very depressing or maudlin. I'm sorry!)
I know that this year has been very sucky for everyone and I sort of agree, but at the same time, it's been a pretty great year for me personally.
During many of the previous years I was never really happy, I was always pretending that I was fine, or that I was happy, but this year has definitely been a year that I've been at my happiest. I was finally myself and I was able to connect and have a much better relationship with my parents.
I'm finally doing things I never thought I would do. I've published 4 poetry books on here, I'm starting to get on track of being a freelance illustrator and making my own merch, I'm hopefully going to start an apprenticeship soon.
I know most people think that 17 is just the dull age between "sweet" 16 and "legally and adult" 18, but for me it's felt like the age I finally grew out of my dumb rebellious streak. I've finally moved on and it feels like I've learned so much and in a way I'm sad that this year is coming to an end.
As unpredictable and as crazy this year has been, I found comfort in it and I'm not ready to start a new one. I mean I'm going to be 18 very soon and I'm not ready for that whole bunch of new responsibilities, I want to stay 17 forever.
Growing old is inevitable and we all know this, but it doesn't stop us from wishing that we wouldn't. I knew I was always in a rush to grow up, but now I want it all to slow down. It feels like time is running out and I want to make sure I achieve all the goals I've set out for myself. I want to do my best to make myself happy and proud.
(I'm getting so morbid and maudlin so I'm gonna try and lighten it up)
Anyway I'm so, so grateful for all the support everyone's given me on my books. You are all awesome and I love you! I definitely wouldn't be working on my 4th poetry book if it wasn't for all of you.
Stay safe and have a good year ❤
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Whirling Thoughts, Weird Ideas
Non-FictionLike the title says this book is basically essays about some thoughts and there's also some fun weird stuff to kinda lighten it all up These are more serious, well some serious parts of me, it's really just bits about me, my opinions on certain subj...
