Chloe’s POV
I can hear people entering the room and I know it’s Luke, Calum, and Ashton. I wonder where Michael is? Had they called him? Did he know I was in the hospital? Was he too long gone to even care anymore? I miss him and wish he was here. Eventually, I hear them leave again. I wish I could open my eyes and talk to them.
I can hear the TV turn on, signifying someone is in the room. I bet it’s a nurse, I know a nurse comes in here sometimes to watch me and make sure I’m still okay.
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I hear loud voices and I know the boys are back. I hear them talking about some letter. I feel someone take my hand and I hear Calum start talking to me.
“Chloe, Mikey wrote you a letter and he wants us to read it to you.” Calum tells me.
Dear Chloe,
I want you to know how sorry I am. For everything. I love you so damn much and I never meant to hurt you so bad. But it’s something I must live with everyday. Did you know the first night I was checked into rehab that I cried most of the day and I ended up crying myself to sleep? It’s true! When the boys told me about you, I felt really bad. I’m the reason you’re in the hospital. I never meant to hurt you so much. So the first day you were in the hospital, I told them I wanted to check into rehab. And I’m getting better everyday. I was done feeling this way. I was ready to get better and own up to my mistakes. I’m done feeling guilty about my past, because I know I can’t change it, no matter how much I want to. But, I can change my future. I want to get better for not only the band, but for you as well. I know you went through hell and back. I know I put you through hell. That’s entirely my fault, but I never meant for any of this to happen. What you went through... No one should have to go through that. Ever. I am so fucking sorry for everything I put you through. The boys told me that you almost died because you were so fucking heartbroken. That makes me feel so fucking guilty. I can’t even think about living in a world without you in it, Chloe. I am so in love with you and that’s why I’m getting better. I never want to be that person again. The shit I put you all through, I don’t want you to have to go through that again, ever! I’m done with the alcohol and waking up hungover and an empty heart. You complete me, Chloe. I hope when I get out, you’ll be awake and we can start over and work through our mistakes. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me, even though I don’t deserve your forgiveness. I love you with all my heart, Chloe Rosewood, and I’ll never stop.
Forever and always yours, Mikey xx
He wrote me a letter while he was in rehab? He’s in rehab? I almost died? He was getting better for me? He’s asking me to forgive him? Was he hurting just as bad of me? He felt guilty and that it was all his fault I was in the hospital? All these questions swirled around in my brain, if only I could wake up and ask them these questions. But my eyes and mouth wouldn’t cooperate. I feel someone tuck the letter under my gown and I hear them leave. As they leave, I feel my eyes open. Before I can call out to them, they are already gone. I pull out the letter and read it over. Tears come to my eyes, I was gonna get my Mikey back. I stay up the rest of the night, re-reading the letter and eventually fall asleep.
