i led him to the bed, with our finger intertwined. i know he was drunk but so was i plus we both have fucked before. we both sat on the bed and i take advantage of this opportunity to admire him.
"you're so beautiful." i say caressing his face and gently rubbing my thumb across his check. his checks glow a bright pink and he looks down. i lean in and we start moving our lips in sync. as the kiss progresses and grows more and more intimate i move my hands to lift his shirt off. after a second i pull away to take off his pants before i notice something on his body. i saw fresh purple and brown brushes, along with some faded yellowish ones. i already knew he was being abused but being reminded of it, with fresh bruises that had to be painful was like a punch in the gut. and it oddly made me feel more sober. it broke my heart to think about him in pain, especially at the account of another, especially if that person was his own dad. i moved down and gently placed my lips on the marks. i gave him small gentle kisses all over his bruises, being sure not to hurt him further.
he looks up at me, sadness filling his eyes, and i couldn't help but feel a pool of guilt in my gut. i know it's not my fault but technically it is. i don't want him to be sad for me, i don't want him to hurt because of me. i felt terrible. i'm just him into pulling my shitty life.
"chase don't be sad.. please? i'm sorry." he brought me into a tight hug.
"what are you sorry for? you have nothing to be sorry for noen. this isn't your fault none of it is." his words and his hug they helped to comfort me, and i almost felt at ease but i knew i would need to be constantly reassured and i didn't wanna put that on him. the guilt still lingered, but i could ignore it and push past it. his arms felt so nice, and so comforting. it made it easy to forget everything else.
"really? you promise because i just feel bad-"
"sweetheart shhh it's not your fault okay? i promise you have nothing to feel bad about, i don't want you feeling bad. it's not your fault and nothing you do will change that ever. " i pulled away from his embrace and connected our lips once again.
"you sure you wanna?" he asks
"1000 and 1% sure" i reply kissing him again, i pull his shirt off and he flips us over to he's on top of me. he pulls his pants off first, then mine. he starts kissing my stomach, slowly inching down my body. he angles himself into position and grabs my hips, until suddenly i hear the door knob jiggle and i watch it push open. chase shoots his head up and fear and anxiety pulsates through my veins, as i wait in anticipation to see who's barged in.
"chase? noen?" jaden asks, with a unfamiliar girl close behind him.
"shit shit shit shit. jaden?" chase says as he stumbles to put his pants back on.
"uh- ill-um well ill leave you guys to it." jaden says turning around a leaving.
"ah fuck." chase says as he puts his shirt back on and runs to catch up to jaden.
i catch up to him before he gets downstairs and he isn't with that girl anymore.
"jaden hey man you can't tell anyone. i'm serious it was just a one night thing, we were drunk it was nothing."
"chase i wouldn't do that to you, you're secret is safe with me. and you don't have a bullshit me i saw you two tonight, the way you looked at each other, the way you guys were all night, hell i already knew you two were boning before i walked in on you." he said that kinda loud, i looked around nervously to make sure nobody was listening.
"really, it's that obvious?"
"fuck ya are you kidding? so how long have you guys been a thing?"
"a thing? no, we aren't anything he has a girlfriend. plus i'm not gay."
"chase, like i said stop bullshitting me you're as straight as fucking ellen degrneres, you don't have to lie i support you no matter what, and he better break up with his girl because he is so clearly in love with you." my stomach fluttered and my heart sped up, i couldn't contain the smile that was forming on my lips.
"wait, really? you thought that? no... he can't be." i say trying to deny it, i mean i don't think me loves me, he can't, it impossible i'm me and he's, well he's noen. he's perfect and he has a girlfriend so he can't love me.
"and you clearly love him back." he says smirking.
"jaden-" i was cut off by noen walking over with a anxious look on his face.
"jaden please you can't tell anyone."
"its fine noen we already talked, i trust jaden he's a good guy." i say reassuring noen.
" okay well i'm gonna go back to the party, i'll let you two get back to it." he winked and drew a heart with his fingers. i rolled my eyes at him playfully before walking away.
"so can we really trust him? noen asked.
"yes we really can i'd trust him with my life."
