chase thoughts, dialogue and actions
noen thoughts dialogue and actions
other characters thoughts, dialogue and actions
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but why i haven't done it yet
the answer I haven't been able to find
so I guess until then I'll just sit in my room
And I'll wait for you
to come hit me up sometime
alien- little tyrant
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i am laying on my twin-sized mattress mindlessly scrolling through tik tok when i suddenly get a text from abby.
abby‼️🥰💗
hey i'm coming over.
me
okii i'll be waiting
a pool of dread filled my stomach i sighed and turned to my side anxiously awaiting her arrival. i sound so horrible right now, she's my girlfriend and i should love spending time with her. and i do love spending time with her i just don't really like doing anything with her. i know crazy, a high school boy not wanting to fuck all of the time. i don't know it just doesn't feel right, it's probably my fault i must be doing something wrong. maybe it was the lack of affection i got as a kid affecting my relationships. i continued distracting myself with the short videos i scrolled through until i hear her engine pull up and her car wheels roll across the smooth pavement. followed by the opening and closing of her car door.
"noenn, i'm here" she called from the front entrance. i hear her foot steps approaching my room and hear my door swing open. i brace myself before turning around and fake a smile. it wasn't even just her i simply don't wanna hang with anyone right now. i value my time being alone. but i can't tell her that i don't wanna disappoint her or possibly hurt her feelings.
"wow and you didn't even come to the door to greet me, how rude" she fake pouted
"i know , i know i'm sorry" i said sitting up she walked towards me and kissed me. and it wasn't horrible but it wasn't great either. it was just a kiss, nothing special about it. we laid on my bed, close to each other. she put her head in my chest and i put my arm around her as we squeezed onto my small bed meant for only one person. but we always made it work. i continued to scroll through tiktok and she grabbed the remote from my bedside table. she sighed as she looked at the table, full of empty glasses stacked onto of each other, to create more room for the half eaten food and wrappers and other trash on the table. it matched the rest of my filthy disgusting room with clothes scattered all over the place and moldy food. i am awar of how disgusting it is and i am ashamed of it.i just don't have the energy to clean it. i know i'm a lazy useless piece of shit.
"noen. you really gotta clean up." she said sympathetically, sitting up and scaling the mess.
"i know i know. i just don't feel like it."
"you never feel like it babe. all you do is kay around."
"ya i get it i'm a lazy, useless piece of shit who can't do anything. if you can't handle it then leave." i lashed out in her. the second i finnsihed talking i felt horribly guilty. but abby, being abby she's annoyingly understanding.
"hey don't say that you're amazing, you just don't have a lot of motivation rn and i get it. i will help you clean your room."
"no abby you don't get it because i don't wanna clean my room."
"well too bad because you can't keep living like this." she said grabbing my arm and pulling me up. a feeling of frustration and anger tangled inside me. i whipped my hand away and laid down turning to my side.
"yes i can." i said acting like a immature little child. i hate myself i'm so stupid and now i'm being rude to one of the only people i have in my life.
"okay well then i'll clean it without you. you can help if you feel like it." she said getting up. i watched her pace around my room grabbing trash with her right hand and placing it in a plastic bag she carried in her left hand. o felt stupid laying her doing nothing and really guilty. so after a little bit i dragged myself out of the bed and helped her out of pure humiliation and guilt. i started cleaning my bedside table and she looked at me with a smile, i rolled my eyes and in about an hour and a half my room was practically spotless. we collapsed onto my bed and she turned her head facing me with a smile plastered on her face. she leaned in to kiss me and we shared a short, unpleasant kiss. i smiled at her after.
"thank you." i said smiling
"for what?"
"for forcing me to finally clean, i wouldn't have done it without you and it'd be collecting more filth for weeks"
"well it was my pleasure. i love helping" she said with a cute smile.
"now let's watch movies and cuddle." she said getting comfortable on the bed. i lay next to her and put my arm around her and we sunk back into the position we were in when she arrived. we fell asleep in each other's arms only to be awaken by the sound of my alarm i'm the early morning.
"oh no i must've fallen asleep here" she said sitting up
"i've gotta go. bye love you." she said giving me a short kiss and leaving. i felt drained in a weird way. it's weird because i never felt drained when we were friends and we hung out. well i did but not after such a short amount of time. although i am pretty introverted so that could be it.
i made it to school and was walking through the halls making my way to my homeroom and was greeted by a text from abby.
abby‼️🥰💗
good morning babe i had a great time last night. wanna hang later?
just as i was writing a reply i was interrupted by a body crashing into me, causing us both to fall, and causing me to drop my phone. i looked up embarrassed to reveal who i bumbled into and realized it was chase hudson. which made me every more embarrassed and scared.
"i'm soo sorry i wasn't looking where i was going and i didn't mean to i'm really really sorry."
"i-its fine don't worry about it." he said getting up and quickly walking away. that's weird, he is infamous for being a complete ass to everyone. everyone except all the girls the flirts with when he's trying to fuck them, but then goes back to being a dick after he got what he wants.
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a/n
hey guys i'm back!! sorry for not finishing the last book, i just hate that book so much. i hate the way i wrote it and everything about it. i wanted to start fresh so here we are.
