chase thoughts, dialogue and actions
noen thoughts dialogue and actions
other characters thoughts, dialogue and actions
————————————————————————-I want you all to myself
Don't leave none for nobody else
I am an animal with you
No angels could beckon me back
And it's hotter than hell where I'm at
I am an animal with you
animal - troye sivan
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i noticed him starting to lead towards me, following my lead. our lips met and it ignited a spark of passion. and we started to move in sync. and if everything wasn't perfect before it most certainly was now. i swear i have never tasted something more sweet and addicting until now. this was very possibly the best kiss i've ever had and to say the least i've had a lot. i stuck my tounge in his mouth and we fought for dominance. i pulled away to put the bong on the table beside in order to minimize the space between us and to insecure it didn't break those things are a pain in the ass to get when you're a minor and weeds illegal in your state. he stared at me with desperate, pleading eyes and god i can't even begin to explain what those eyes do to me. i wasted no time to connect our lips back together. we made out roughly and he got on top of me and straddling me and rubbing against my cock. i pulled away and bag a sucking on his neck creating purple and pink marks up and down his neck. i pulled his shirt off and grab him by his waist flipping us over so i am now on top. i started dressing myself as he finnished. i look up at him and take this opportunity to admire his body at such a vulnerable state . i noticed a few bruises, i knew that he just got jumped but there was something peculiar about theses marks. some seemed to be recent but others were fading as if they had already been there and had started to heal. i could tell he was slightly uncomfortable and was most likely insecure. i halted for a second, his words replaying in my head. "my dad has a short temper." "he doesn't care about me." and i remeber how timid he acts when talking about his dad as if he scared of him. and it dawned on me noen was being abused. my emotions of lust and desire were replaced with sorrow and anger. my poor baby, how could anyone out him through that. how could someone be so cruel and horrible? the thought of anyone harming him made me sick and overcome with overwhelming emotions so scattered and all over the place i can't exactly put my funger on what i'm feeling. tears quickly filled my eyes and i pulled him into a tight hug.
"chase what's wrong? did you see the bruises? i told you i was just jumped." i unwrapped my arms around him and held his arms, so i could look at him.
"noen stop lying i'm not stupid. you don't have to lie to me anymore, i'm not blind noen."
"it's fine chase it's not that bad he just gets angry sometimes don't worry about it really." he tried to convince me with tears filling his eyes.
"it's not fine noen it's horrible i can help you get out of there noen. we can call the police."
"no! chase the police won't help promise me you won't call the police!" he says worried, as if bring them up triggered him
"okay okay fine. no cops, i don't trust them anyways. but im here for you noen you can stay here as many days as you want and talk to me. i hate the thought of you getting hurt."
"no it's fine i can handle myself. i'm used to it."
" you are always welcome here i promise. can you stop acting so closed off? noen why can't you understand that i care for you!" tears stream down his face and i pull him into another hug.
"i-i'll never escape him." he says almost in a whisper, choking on tears. i didn't know what to say because i couldn't think of a solution. he was so broken and he is hurting and j don't know how to help him or fix this. i feel so defeated. all i could do is hug him tighter.
"i'll get you out of there i promise." i say in attempt to comfort him. he just shakes his head. i didn't know what to say because i can't think of a solution, we are just kids he should be worrying about school and girls not abusive parents and taking care of himself. he is so broken and he is hurting and i don't know how to help him. i feel so defeated. all i could do is hug him tighter.
"wanna watch something? you know to keep your mind off it."
"mmhm." he hummed in my ear. i held him for another second before pulling away to grab the remote i laid back down and he colapsdd into my arms. nuzzling his head in my chest and wrapping his arms around me. i wrapped one arm around him while i scrolled through the options. i clicked on my suicide directors cut and i sat up slowly allowing noen to move off me, with a cinfusef expression in his face. i lean over to the bedside table and grab the bong.
"since we never got to smoke." he says hitting the bong. as he was smoking i began getting dressed. i only put on my boxers and realized i was wearing jeans and they'd be uncomfortable to lay in.
"can i borrow some sweatpants?" i ask shyly
"of course help yourself to any of my clothes" he says pointing towards the dresser across the room. he puts on his boxers and nothing else. i put on a pair of sweatpants and crawl back in bed and he hands me the bong.
"don't know what'd i'd do without weed." i jokingly kissed the bong. he chuckled in response. he sat up, leaning his back on the headboard i sit beside him, ensuring our legs were touching and rested my head on his shoulder and he played with my hair as i hit the bong. we passed it back and forth while watching the movie until it was all ash. he emptied the bowl and packed another, and another, and another until we were 10 bowls deep and almost done with the movie. after we finally finished smoking we returned to our original position, my head on his chest and him holding me close. for once in my life i felt safe and secure. i smiled to myself, but that smile soon faded to a frown when i realized what if just done. i cheated on abby. guilt and regret overcome me i feel completely awful. what am i gonna do? i push these thoughts away and decide to live in the moment. we already sucked faces and almost fucked, cuddling is nothing in comparison. i thought to myself trying to justify my decision. i felt so comfortable and safe in his arms i never wanted to leave. suddenly my eyes grow heavy and j find myself falling asleep in his arms.
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sorry i haven't updated in a while i kinda lost track of the days.
