chase thoughts, dialogue and actions
noen thoughts dialogue and actions
other characters thoughts, dialogue and actions
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This is a love song for a girl
Who will never know it's about her
Know it's pretty stupid
But I'm much too shy to tell her
She's beaming that smile all the while
I'm all tripped up on my own throat
I guess there is no hope
looking out for you- joy again
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my heart sank when the teacher announced we could pick our own partners. i know most high schoolers would be phsyced but nope, not me. i have one friend in the whole world and he doesn't even go to this school. and abby and i don't have any classes together we even have different lunch's. so i don't really talk much throughout the day, in fact i'm practically mute. i sit there with my head down, picking the skin in the side of my nail anxiously while i listen to everyone excitedly talking to their friends. suddenly to my surprise i hear a familiar voice.
"you know you shouldn't pick at your skin it's bad for you." i gave him a soft smile in response at a loss of words this shocked me because nobody's ever looked out for me like that. i mean ya abby but she never really notices my anxiety tics.
"so, noen looks like we are stuck working together"
"looks like it" i said shyly
"alright everyone i see you've all got your partners, so for the project you will be completing a detailed 10 slide presentation on google docs and this handout explains the requirements." she said holding up a thick stack of paper and passing them out. the bell rand signifying the end of the period.
"alright this is due on monday so you wanna come to my house tonight and work on it?"
"okay, ya, i'll drive over after school."
"oh wait! you drive? could i get a ride?"
"ya of course"
"oh and here's my number just in case you need to work on the project.. or need anything else." i say with a wink, slightly flirt with him, not much though. flirting with him is different, it makes my heart race and i get nervous about what he thinks. it's different than the other girl's i flirt with. it's almost is like i have something to lose. something that i don't even got . it's probably because i've never flirted with a guy before. and i know what you're thinking, aren't you supposed to go to detention and hang with addison. yep, and yep, but i am gonna blow both of them off because i have a feeling this is gonna be more interesting than both of those combined.
it is lunch time and there are so many thoughts racing through my brain, so instead of sitting at my normal lunch table i decide to go on a walk to clear my mind. plus i don't really feel like talking to anyone and i'm not hungry. i walk out the front doors and turn the corner before i stick my hand in my bag and pull out a small red and white rectangular box with the word "marlboro" printed on the front and a red lighter. i pulled out a cigarette and brought it to my lips and proceeded to light it and take a long drag. why am i so attracted to noen? i can't be gay, no it's not possible. but just look at him, he's so fucking adorable. i think his mysterious, shy antics are so cute, hell i think everything about him is cute. but no i can think someone is cute without wanting to fuck them. wait- okay i'm done thinking now. i take another drag and feel the smoke fill my lungs and exit as i inhale. after many conflicting thoughts i've come to the conclusion i don't like him, i just like the way he looks and want to be freinds with him. i finnish my cigarette and take one last drag before dropping it in the floor in front of me and stomping on it feeling a little nauseas from the nicotine and lack of food, but i don't mind it. in fact i kinda like the pain. it distracts me from other shit. i decide to head back.
