I don't remember what I wanted but I searched. I searched for this unknown thing that I knew I needed.
What I thought I needed.
So I wasted a perfectly good year of my life looking for this thing. I didn't even know if this thing existed. Going through pain, frustration, rejection, humiliation and I have nothing to show for it. Nothing but ugly reminders, so as I start this new year I'm going to put a stop to my search.
I'm going to practice reminding myself that I still have a self worth even if I don't have this unknown thing. I'm going to tell myself that I have a lifetime ahead of me and that thing will come eventually if it comes at al.
I'm ok without this thing. There will be days where I feel like searching again but I have other things that matter so much more than the unknown.
I matter more than the unknown and I think that's the greatest development yet.
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Alrighty, we got through 2020 so now we tackle 2021 with pure spite. Fuck 2020 and if it comes to it, fuck 2021 too.
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PoetryA few thoughts, poems, and whatever the fuck I want it to be. Don't read if you're easily offended because some of these topics are really sensitive.
