Abused for Love [completed]

23 - Carre

I was out my locker, hiding my locker door. I was sad that I left Coyy, he deserves better than me. That dream, it was so real, so alive. I see Jax coming down the hall, with Coyy. Tear sparks instantly, I could've worked it out with him but I can't deal with him and explain the dream. I couldn't explain that and I just couldn't. I looked over my shoulder to see Jax, Coyy and a few friends talking across from me. Coyy had a happy-but-not smile that she knew too well. He uses it when something has happened but he doesn't want to talk about it─for example when I made a terrible joke, and when he's uber worried.

Coyy turned his head around, our eyes met. I couldn't handle looking at Coyy, I look away bashfully. I see Jax walking over, I shut my locker and sigh, then place my head against my locker door. Here it comes, I really don't want to do this. "Explain this!" Jax says, placing─more slams─the note against the locker. "You wouldn't understand," I say. "Then make me understand! Is it that you didn't love him any─" I don't know what comes through me, rage, anger, hate. I slap Jax. "Don't you dare say that! I love Coyy. Almost more than my own mother. You wouldn't understand what happened that night, nowhere close to what I'm going through. Just leave me alone!" I say walking off, someone grabs my elbow. "Jax just leave─"

When they spin me around, I look to see Coyy was the one to grab me. "If you won't explain it to Jax, which I totally understand, explain it to me." I sigh and look down at the floor. Coyy pulls me over to the side, and places a finger under my chin, and makes me look at him. I turn my head away shyly. "Car, explain it to me. Why? What happened. I've never seen you flinch like that to me. What did I do?" I look over to see Jax and a few other guys pointing to the note then pointing at Coyy. I look at them.

A tear sparks into my eye. "I'm so sorry Coyy. I don't want to put you through this but I can't. I am sure we can get through it. I'm really sorry." I kiss him, I hear hoots and hollers from the guys. I break it, "I'm really sorry Coyy. Goodbye." I saw him look at me, I wanted so bad to stay but I can't. A tear falls down my cheek. I turn and head off to Ms Evergreens. I don't stay, I can't. If I do, I'll never leave again.