Can't stop thinking about you (Book 1) bxb story

Chapter 13 I got this feeling (B's & J's POV)

Chapter 13: I got this feeling
Blake's POV (point of view)

It's Friday March 2019.
I am now 14 years old.
I felt like I was born gay or I thought I was.
I couldn't stop thinking about David all the time.
Everyday his face would be stuck in my head. I wanted him so bad.
I wanted to tell him that I like him so much but he might not like me back.
He could be straight, he could be homophobic or he could be anything.
I don't think David could be a tiny bit into me.

I tried to search up ways on 'how to get someone to like me' or 'how to confess to your crush' but doing that is kinda dumb and stupid. I read lots of books, I saw tv shows even the LGBT shows, I watched movies even LGBT, I looked up on Reddit, watched videos on YouTube and check on other stuff that could help me to find a way to get David to like me more.
People online sometimes say 'don't confess to your crush cause you could leave them confuse, stress and it could break a relationship with them' and the other people online would say 'Don't listen to the negative comments online. Confess to your crush cause you don't know if they like you back. It can be a risk thought'.

I didn't know what to do. Should I listen to those people? Should I go with my gut? Should I go with my heart?
I felt like I was on a breakdown. Lots of words were spinning around my head.

"Hey! Focus on the game" Jacob said next to me, playing on the PS4.
"Sorry. I was thinking of something"
Jacob and I were playing the PS4 in my house. We were playing our favourite game, Minecraft. No not Fortine!
"When can I play?" Kai questioned as he was sitting on the corner of the couch.
"Later" I told him.

"I'm going to win!" Jacob said loudly.
The game in Minecraft is survival games basically like the 'Hunger Games'.
About a minute later , I died in the game.
"Hey! That's not fair!" I barked at him.
"But I won the game Blake! Ha!" Jacob said while laughing at me, pointing at me.

"Ugh is it my turn to play now!?" Kai said. He looked already annoyed.
"Sure" I told him.
I gave Kai my PS4 controller and let him play.
"So Kai, what game do you wanna play?" Jacob said.
"Spleef!" Kai said happily.
"Okay" Jacob said and put the game on.
I watched both of them play together then suddenly Jacob said something.

"Blake!"
"Ya, what?" I asked him.
"I saw Daniel" Jacob said.
"Daniel!?"
"Yeah"
"Where?" I asked him.
"Like a week ago in the city centre" he told me.

Daniel was a classmate or a 'friend' of mine before I went to high school.
When primary school had finish I thought he left the country and moved away.
I didn't really bother looking for Daniel through Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat or Instagram because something had happened between us.

"I thought he left" I thought.
"Well he didn't, I thought he left too!" Jacob said.
"Who?" Kai interrupted.
"Nothing, just focus on your game" I told Kai. He grunted and looked back at the game.
"Anyways, did Daniel say something?" I asked Jacob.
"We just said 'hi' and 'how are you' that's it. It wasn't a long conversation cuz I was with my Mom in that time and probably Daniel was in a hurry" Jacob explained.

Daniel in the olden days during primary, was known as the class clown. Daniel would sometimes act gay or maybe he is. He would always be funny. He would make jokes which makes me laugh and sometimes adult jokes too or gay jokes. God he was so stupid and funny in the same time.
I never ever told anyone but I got this tiny feeling that I like Daniel.

"I won? I won! In your face Jacob! HA!" Kai said happily and he pointed at Jacob while laughing at him.
"Alright Kai you won" Jacob said calmly.
Kai gave the controller back to me so I can play next.
"Guys I'll go upstairs. Thanks for the game!" Kai said.
"Your welcome" I told him and Kai went upstairs.
Jacob hopped towards me and sat next to me.

Jacob's POV (point of view)
"So Blake. What were you thinking of?" I asked him.
"Nothing"
"Come on it's something not nothing. Do you have a girlfriend?" I demanded.
"What!? No!"
"No? Your sure? Are you gay?" I said as a joke.
"No?! I'm not!"
"Alright just saying" I said as I put my hands ups.

I took out my phone from my pocket to see the time.
"Maybe I do like someone" Blake whispered to me.
I gasped at what he said.
"Who?!" I asked him.
"Well...... she is my... crush" Blake said as he rub his head with his hand.
"Tell me more!" I demanded more.
"Okay so I like this person for months now. But I don't know if.... she.... likes me back" Blake told me.
Blake took a pillow from his couch and buried his face in his pillow.

"How do you know her?" I asked him.
"From.... another close friend" he said.
"Okay. Um... Oh, why not you tell her that you like her" I suggested
"But she might not like me back" he cried.
"You don't know yet if she likes you" I said, trying to give him some hope.
"But it's going to be impossible for her to like me back" Blake said.
"Hey! There is nothing impossible in this world Blake. Everything or anything is possible" I explained to him.
"I guess so" Blake sighted.

I look back at my phone and played with it.
"Hey Jacob" Blake spoke.
"Yeah what?" I asked
"Do you hate gays?" Blake asked and I gasped at the question.
"Why do you asked?" I said.
"Cuz you thought I was gay so I just want to ask if you hate gays" Blake asked again.
"No! I don't hate them! I mean sometimes I say jokes about gays but I really don't think there's nothing wrong with them" I told him.

The room was quiet. Later on, we talked about other things. During those talks, I noticed that Blake looked was nervous.
Probably because he was thinking of his crush.
I felt like Blake has more secrets than he told me but I didn't want to bother about that.
The day had ended like any other day.
End of chapter 13