𝙗𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 (𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙞𝙙𝙚) || hsmtmts au

43. something like that

R I C K Y 'S P O V

i hold my nini in my arms while we sway to the music gently, desperately trying to think of how to go about this. there are a million things i could say, and if i mess this up and say the wrong thing-no, no more ifs, ricky.

"hey..can i talk to you?" i say while i nudge nini's head off of my chest.

"what about, bug?"

"it's actually..what i couldn't tell you. a few months ago, do you remember?"

"of course. you can tell me anything, ricky."

"i.."

"yeah?"

"i..like, i really.."

"you what?" nini smiles, waiting for me to go on.

i admire her for a second, tucking her hair behind her ear and holding the side of her face.

"i love you, nini."

"i love you too..?" she responds, not understanding what exactly i meant. normally, i'd just go along with this-but i'm not backing out this time.

"no, i..do you remember that night we played that stupid party game at ashlyn's?"

"which time?"

"the time where we got locked in a closet. and i couldn't kiss you?" i ask her softly, my heart pounding out of my chest.

"yeah?" she tells me. i pull away from her just a little to see her face better.

"do you remember what i said?"

"well..yeah. we almost kissed, but then you said you couldn't kiss me like that. i still don't really know what you meant, but i-"

i feel a rush of courage wash over me before i cut her off by abruptly putting my hands on the sides of her jaw, holding her beautiful face in my hands as i smash my lips into hers.

i wasn't planning on actually being this bold (no, seriously, i have no idea where the confidence came from), but here we are.

i feel the shock and confusion move through her face before i tilt my mouth back ever so slightly so that our lips are just barely touching, giving her a chance to pull away if she wants to (because i would never force her into something that she didn't want, unlike somebody else.)

both of our eyes are slightly open, just gazing into each other. i see her close her eyes though, her arms tightening around me and-

ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod-

she's actually kissing me back.

her hands quickly search for a new spot, grabbing the sides of my arms before wrapping them around my neck and pulling me even closer so she can relax into me.

i feel the light rain trickle onto our faces as we kiss, but i barely notice. i'm way too focused on the perfect taste of her recently applied chapstick, or lipgloss, or whatever it is that makes her mouth taste so good that i can't stop.

it's kind of funny, actually, our first kiss happened just after we were dancing to dancing queen in the eighth grade. this isn't anything like that kiss though, that was just a peck. this is literally thirteen years of slow burn being let out into the most perfect moment that was worth waiting every single second for.

we keep repositioning bodies as we move, trying to make it more intense. nini's mostly just following what i do, the two of us just trying to get closer to each other (which i don't think is possible at this point).