Fire and Ice

Fire and Ice XX

Hello, all you beautiful people! Long time no see. Writers block is a curse, I swear. I still don't like what I have written. But I truly wanted to bring this story to a close before school starts. So a couple updates until the finale. 

New part in below. I'm not a fan of it... but I hope you enjoy it! 

Much love to you all for still remembering this story. 💜

Enjoy!

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She couldn't take her eyes off of him...kept her liquid gaze fixed to his...unable to break the connection as thought after thought rushed through her hazy brain.

Her heart recognizing everything that was reflected in his eyes like a clear mirror. His pain...his regret...his disappointment...and his love.. for her. It was still there. Like it had always been there...

For her. 

She gulped, thrown so off by the enormity of their situation...of the situation she had been the ultimate cause of. It had all been her own fault. For trusting the wrong person...for not believing in the man she had made vows to...for not protecting her child... for not protect the siblings that had embraced her...

It had all been her own fault. She had caused Ana to lose her children... and karma had made her child pay for that sin.

This man standing in front of her with his heart of her sleeve... was completely innocent.

She had been the real murderer. There were no words to describe what she was currently feeling for herself... it went beyond self-disgust and hatred...

She wished she could drop dead this very minute... she wished to die because there was no way she could repent for all that she had done wrong in her life...

She had failed to be a good daughter... to both Selim and Fadik Ana.

She had failed to be a good sister... to both Aksin and the Kurtulus siblings.

She had failed to be a good wife to Azer... who had given her everything without wanting anything else in return.

And the most painful discovery yet, she had failed to be a mother.

She blinked, letting the pools of saline water glide down her cheeks as she continued to stare at him.

She had brought pain for everyone in her life... especially to him...

How could he still look at her without an ounce of hatred?

How could he still shed tears for her?

How could he still love her?

He couldn't. He shouldn't.

Because she deserved hatred. She deserved pain. She deserved to remain unloved. She deserved to be alone.

She was too toxic... too damaged...

And he deserved to be happy... miles and miles away from her ill-fated life.

She gulped, knowing what she had to do now... to free him.

"I want you to leave..." she said stoically, hiding every emotion from her eyes. His brows drew curiously, and he blinked back his own tears. He swiftly cleared his throat and gulped before responding.