Before She Knew

Chapter 32 - Brave Ending

Chapter 32

We all boarded the plane, I was getting used to this whole process now. We flew first class which was so amazing. There were seats by two so Niall and I sat together. I got the window seat and Niall in the isle. I entwined my fingers into his and he told me he'd like to read the book that made me cry.

"You're kidding?" I said, I didn't think he liked to read.

"Well no. it must have been pretty important to you so I wanna read it," he replied. I smiled a goofy.

"It's in my suitcase but once we get back you can read it." He kissed my nose and put his chair back, trying to sleep. I took out my iPod and listened to music, my favorite pass time.

We landed many hours later and I must have fell asleep because Louis was hitting my face when I opened my eyes. "Up and attem!" he screamed in ear. I pushed him away from me and saw everyone getting off the plane so I hurried and tried to get up not realizing my seatbelt was still on and it pulled me back. Some behind me unbucked it and I turned to see Harry.

"Um, thanks," I said laughing. he smiled his wonderful smile and started exiting the plane. I smiled to myself. Amanda is probably watching over us right now laughing at me.

I spotted Niall and jogged up to him after security. "Why'd you leave me?" I asked him. He laughed and kept walking. I was confused and he put his hand back for me to grab and I did.

"You're too cute when you sleep. I can't wake you up," he said smiling at the ground. I laughed slightly. Niall definetly always made me laugh and I was thankful for that.

Paul dropped all of us off at our houses, me going to Niall's house. I plopped down on the couch in the living room. This couch was very comfortable indeed. I found my eyes closing and evenually I fell asleep. Jetlag does that to you. I woke up suddenly not being to breath and choking on nothing. I heard Niall run over to me and hitting my back slightly. I was sitting on the edge of the couch sweaty and finally being able to get air to my lungs.

"You alright?" Niall asked worry in his eyes.

"I don't know Niall. I just had a dream about Amanda and it was horrible. She was just sitting there, on the ground, drowning in her own tears... She had a look of lonliness and desperation on her face... Niall why did she have to leave me all alone? I need her. She was the only one who was alaways there for me and I feel like part of me is gone. I've kept this is for so long and I just can't do this anymore. No one knows how I feel. My father and my best friend have gone and left me alone on this earth full of lying, cheating, mean people." I said choking through sobs. This was terrible. I just let all my feelings out to Niall who probably hated me and thought I was crazy and hopeless. I thought he was going to make he leave, tell me he didn't want a crazy for a girlfriend. But instead he started crying. I saw a single tear roll down his face and he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms. I cried into chest, fianlly letting it out.

"I think you are brave Avia, so brave. You are the best thing I could have ever asked for. I know it's hard and painful but life does that to you. It throws pain at you and you have to throw it back, demanding that you will not let it hurt you. Just tell me whatever you feel, I will also listen. I can't take the place of your dad, or Amanda, but I can help you. I promise I can help." I held him tigher and kissed his eyes, and ears, and nose, and lips. I wanted to take everything I could of him in, never let him leave me.

I eventaully stopped crying and Niall carried me up the stairs. He threw me on his bed and I got up and jumped around on it. "Will you play me some music? I need something to dance for," I said pointing at his guitar. He smiled and picked it up. Sitting down on the bed, he started playing every melody he knew and sang along. I jumped and danced around for awhile. I decided I wanted to be happy. I wanted to live each day knowing happiness and making happiness for myself. I loved Niall and he made me happy, the kind of happiness you had to wait to come to you.

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My time with the boys was over. I was on the plane home wishing I didn't have to leave. I didn't realize how fast this summer went. Through Amanda's death and Niall's wonderful and Zayn, Louis, and Liam's kindness and finally Harry's support. I was thankful for all of them and Niall would be joining me during Christmas break.

I moved into my own apartment, still going to school become a teacher. I really found who I was during that summer with the boys and Niall. I was sad about Amanda still, I had my bad days but I made new friends. Very good friends. Niall and I were still happy and going strong. I heard Zayn and Andrea were getting serious too, along with Danielle and Liam, and Eleanor and Louis. I don't know about Harry. Niall tells me he doesn't look interested in finding anyone yet. He decided to go with my way and waiting for a girl.

I can say this was blessing and I can say it was a crazy, outrageous masterpiece. I found someone I loved, lost someone I loved, but most importantly found myself. I may or may not be hoping Niall and I would get married. Who can blame a girl from dreaming?! I knew it wasn't near but somehow I knew it wouldn't be far away. I thought back to Amanda, before she knew about Harry, or any of the boys. When we were young and carefree and happy

I imagined that's how she was now, in heaven.

The End.

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Thank you guys so much for reading this!!! It's been really fun writing it and I kinda just wrote didn't have a plan. I have another idea for a story too! Maybe with Liam? Or Harry? I'm not quite sure yet. Again, thanks. Get sharing please:) have a merry Christmas!!