Before She Knew

Chapter 24 - Feelings Talk

Chapter 24

I woke up the next morning happy. Happy whenever Niall and I got in a fight we always worked it out. Maybe it was because I was sucker for those eyes. But then I realized my best friend was in a coma. And my smiled slowly turned down. I pulled my knees to my chest and put my head on my knees. I knew tears would come. I pulled a blanket around my shoulders and sat there attempting to not cry. I couldn't just keep crying and acting like life was hopeless. I needed to talk to Amanda's mom and Harry. I knew he wasn't doing well and I ignored it because I knew it would hurt me more.

I got up quietly and carried the blanket around my shoulders with me, dragging it on the floor. I shut Niall's door and went into the living room. It was almost 11 and I figured Harry was up.

"Hello?" I heard a familiar voice say.

"Harry? It's me, Avia. We need to talk. I know you aren't doing well and I'm not either. I guess... It's just best we talk to each other..." I said not really knowing what to say.

Harry and I never really had a friendly relationship. It was more playful hate. And talking serious with him was hard. But we did. I felt so much better after talking to him. We were both hurt and talking about it was for the best. I always bottle up my emotions and then when I let one out, I let them all out. Harry probably had to hear more than he needed too but he listened and we helped each other.

Niall came out of his room when I was done talking to Harry. "Sleep in late, eh?" I said to him.

"Nah. Was just waiting on you and Harry to finish talking," he said as he sat next to me. He pulled me into his lap and wiped my eyes.

"I don't wanna leave soon. But I have classes. I don't know about Amanda. Harry's flying her mom out. I just don't wanna go home alone..."

"It'll be just fine. You'll be fine. Amanda will be fine. All of us boys will be here if anything happens," Niall said. "You want to get lunch then go to the hospital?"

"Yes please. I'm starving!" I said hoping off Niall's lap.

We ate at a lovely little cafe. The paparazzi were everyone as usual. I tried to ignore them but it was hard. Niall told me to forget them but they were constantly taking pictures of us. We finished lunch and drove to the hospital. I didn't expect what I saw when we got there. Cars everywhere. People everyone. Fences up. Niall and I got out and managed to make it in the hospital doors. No one was allowed in so the paparazzi and fans were still outside.

"That's maddness," I said. Niall nodded and I knew he was used too. I spent the rest of the day with Amanda. I talked to her about everything. I knew she couldn't talk back but I just knew she could hear me. I made Harry come in and sing to her. He sang one of my favorite songs, Fix You by Coldplay. It was beautiful. Amanda's heart rate went up when he started singing. I knew she could hear us.

The sucky thing was I had to go home the day after tomorrow. I didn't want to leave Amanda or Niall. I didn't want to home alone. Amanda's mom was flying out and I just wanted to stay with them. But I knew I had classes.

Niall and I left the hospital around midnight when I was almost passing out. I don't know how Niall managed to stay awake. He said jetlag teaches you to sleep whenever. When we got back I passed out in Niall's bed. I woke up later and was still in skinny jeans and an oversized sweater. I got up slow and ripped my jeans and sweater off. I grabbed the nearest shirt on the ground and fell back into the bed. Niall was next to me facing me. He had a sad look on his face and looked like he was having a bad dream. I didn't know if I should wake him or not. So I just stared at him. At his eye lashes, lips, nose, ears, his little freckles, and slight butt chin. Which was completely adorable. I couldn't believe I was with him. The Niall Horan. I didn't deserve him. But somehow I got him. I was thankful he was mine and that he was caring for Amanda and I. I was upset I had to leave him. I wanted these weeks to be different but I and to go back.

I rolled on my stomach, stuck my hand under my pillow, and fell alseep.