Dear Diary,
I know I said that I'll start cutting so I could be fair to my friends, but I can't bring myself to do it.
At school, I have my mind set. I'm going to cut when I get home.
But when I actually arrive home, I pull out my blade and stare at it, not being able to slice it across my skin anymore.
At first, I wasn't able to quit drawing lines with silver on my arms but now, I can't bring my self to do it.
Can you believe that? I'm actually scared of harming myself. I can't even do it for the sake of my friends.
I'm pathetic
