Dear diary,
You have no fucking idea how hard it is for me to put my thoughts into words.
People like John Green and Ellen Hopkins write beautiful, amazing stories.
They can write the most twisted of things but yet it would be so inspiring and amazing because they are able to put their own thoughts on paper beautifully.
But when I try, it's like a first grader wrote it.
I literally sit in front of an iPad or a piece of paper and a pencil and try to think of ways I could write a certain word differently to make that paragraph better. I even pick up a dictionary and look up certain words and try to rewrite that sentence and make it better but I always fail.
Then I read certain books and it seems like they wrote that fucking amazing, inspiring, relatable chapter so easily.
I don't know.
I guess I'm just better at imagining and playing things in my head than actually putting it into words.
