Dear diary,
You know you're really messed up when you're just doing something like shaving your legs in the shower then the next thing you know, your arms are bleeding and stinging and next to you is a razor blade and a broken razor.
It fucking hurts when you're 3 months clean and you feel as if you can actually get better and live a normal life but the out of the blue, you black out and when you regain consciousness, you look down at your arms and see pink lines oozing deep red blood.
Why did this have to happen? Why can't I just have a fucking normal life for at least 6 months without relapsing.
