Dear best friend,
Things are changing between us, and they're changing fast.
We used to be able to laugh about everything.
Now all there is is awkward silence.
This all started when I told you some of my secrets.
You started avoiding me.
I thought you would stick with me.
I'm pretty stupid right? Thinking that you'll stay with me and all my problems.
But then you said sorry and we made up.
Then yesterday, shit exploded.
I said I was tired when you asked me what was wrong. I lied. I lied for you and all our other friends. I lied because I didn't want to pile all my problems onto you guys. I lied because I didn't want pity.
Then today, you didn't talk to me.
So I sent one of our friends to ask why you were mad at me.
She came back and told me that you said you weren't mad at me. You said that you knew I wasn't tired. That I was lying. But then you said that you don't want anything to do with me because of my problems.
Then you go and tell our friends your problems.
While I'm trying so hard not to cry, trying to block out your convo.
You knew about my dad going to prison.
You knew about my mom.
You knew about me.
But you still left.
You left when I needed you the most.
You left when I didn't want to be left alone.
I thought best friends were supposed to stay with you no matter what. I thought best friends were supposed to wipe your tears away.
Guess I was wrong.
But you want nothing to do with me and my problems.
So I'm making that happen.
I'm staying away from you so you don't have to deal with me and my twisted mind anymore.
