Dear diary,
My life is like ocean waves.
For a couple of hours it's nice, beautiful and peaceful but in the matter of seconds, one little thing ticks me off and the waves start crashing frantically onto the shore.
It's fucking annoying too. Because when the waves start crashing, they crash hard. All my emotions charge at me at once and sometimes, it gets to much for me to handle.
Other times, it's worse. Oh how it is much worse. Throughout the day, my emotions start filling up inside me and by the time I get to 7th period, they're already spewing out of the corner of my eyes, ears and mouth. But you see, you must not be near me when this happens because when you least expect, I'll break. whether it's by crying, yelling, violence. But no, I will not release my emotions on me when this happens, no, I release it on those around me.
But you must understand, I don't want to hurt others. I just can't control myself.
But I guess that's why I cut. So my pain and feelings will have a nice little slit to get out from and I won't have to harm those around me. See mom? I'm not selfish. Im constantly thinking of others.
