[TW: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS ALL OF THE TRIGGER WARNINGS IN THE BIO OF THE STORY. (including a bit of smut ig idk) BUT PLEASE NOTE THAT MENTIONS OF DRUG ABUSE, ALCOHOL ABUSE AND CHILD ABUSE ARE PRESENT IN THIS CHAPTER. Proceed with caution, you've been warned.]
[Catra's POV]
Even though I had had a good time with Adora in art, it was time for something even better.
- "Finally! It's time for food!" Adora cheered as we left the classroom.
However, her cheer was a bit too early because just as we walked down the corridor, someone called Adora's name.
- "ADORA!" the voice called out, making us both turn around.
It was the deputy, Adora's aunt, Mara who was walking towards us, smiling. I saw Adora's pretty eyes light up when she saw her as Ms. Greyskull caught up with us.
- "Hi Adora, so I know I said I wouldn't be able to get your timetable to you today but somehow I managed, so here it is, laminated. You could probably figure your way from here, since the room numbers are written down already. As for P.E., just go to change in your dorm room and show up in the changing rooms. Nothing fancy, just a sports bra, cropped jumper, leggings, you know the drill. You must be Catra." She said, finally slowing down how fast she was speaking and turned to me.
- "Yes Ms. Greyskull, that would be me." I answered with a shy confidence, knowing that she was a teacher, but still just my Princess' aunt. My princess... wow that sounded... interesting. I keep forgetting that me and Adora have only known each other a day. It feels like more than that... Ugh now I'm just panicking.
- "It's nice to see that Adora has made some new friends, but please call me Mara." Mara answered, but winked at the word 'friends' which made both me and Adora blush, making her aunt smirk.
- "Don't worry I won't tell your mum that you got a girlfriend one day into school." Mara continued.
- "Oh... we're not... I'm not..." Adora stuttered and I cringed inside, knowing how awkward this must be for her.
- "Adora. I don't want you to worry about what your parents want. I was joking about the girlfriend part, but maybe that could change, who knows," she put her hands on Adora's shoulders and finished the conversation with, "you deserve love too. Not just your brother, because at this point, that's what it looks like you believe."
I winced at the word she said. Love. As much as I wanted to feel what that felt like, the word was always so toxic in my life. I zoned out for a bit just leaving myself with my own thoughts.
[TW: Suicidal Thoughts, Drugs and Abuse]
Is love actually real?
I just push everyone away after a while, so it never seems to last.
Never ever.
Step-mother said she loved me but that was only once I did what pleased her.
Once I obeyed her.
Once she stopped smashing empty glass bottles on my head, which were previously filled with alcohol.
Once she got high enough she could probably see the clouds.
Once my mind was so blurred I wanted to disappear.
Once I no longer felt like I existed at all.
She didn't love me. She used me. And I know that now. But my family are still in her hands and I don't know what to do about it, or who to talk to.
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If We Tried ~ Catradora AU
FanfictionA VERY SLOW BURN BECAUSE THIS STORY HAS A SUPER IN DEPTH PLOT. A new year has begun at Bright Moon Academy, and Adora is excited to finally go. She showed promise in her studies ever since she was little and now, she was finally perusing her dreams...
