King of the revolution (boyxboyxboy)

(16) Crying keeps me going

"You are more important to me than any other being or thing"

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Alex
If someone would have told me, that after three years of hiding from anyone that would want to hurt me, I would be standing here, I would've laughed.

That night, five or six years ago, when I was forced to say goodbye to the only person that mattered in my life, I was stronger than anyone else in the world. If someone told me to do it again right now, I would not be able to. Evelyn was my life. She is my life and the only one who can protect me, even now. But she is the head of a huge rebellious organization and I am in charge of the business department. We are both busy and I know how important it is that we stay that way, but...

Sometimes I miss the days back in middle school, when everything was so much easier. Me and Evelyn were the power couple of the school. Nobody dared to be homophobic to our faces back then, or Evelyn would have beaten them up in a matter of milliseconds. It was such a beautiful time, when everything was happy and innocent between us. Sadly, we couldn't keep it up forever.

There were only two options for high school in our town, and one of them was Silver row high. Both me and Evelyn started there freshman year, which would end up becoming the worst decision in our lives. Sometimes I wonder if I wouldn't have listened to Evelyn and stayed at the school, would we still be alive and together?

Even though I know its important that we stay busy and don't bother each other too much, I feel very lonely at times. Evelyn is very busy with the Dion mission and so am I, our organization is growing by the second and there is so much to keep up with every day. I have so much work and so much stress I'm drowning in it. But I have nobody to lean on anymore, nobody to take a rest with and calm down.

Me and Evelyn have barely talked for the past month, always being dragged away by work right before anything can happen. I want to kiss her, hug her or even say something to her, but I can't. I can't come close to the woman I love the most in this world and it really does hurt. But what hurts more is that she doesn't seem to notice one bit. The idea of us drifting apart is slowly becoming a reality and I need to do something about it before it's too late. I won't let our relationship slip from my hands like this, I just won't!

So today I have decided to make her notice me, notice us, a little more. She has been working too hard for too long and deserves a good rest.

I dressed myself up in a pretty revealing dress and poured some wine in two glasses, making a fancy meal for the both of us. The table was set and I lit the candles, closing the lights in the room. I let the atmosphere settle in and took a deep breath, anticipating my girlfriends return home. I knew it would take many hours, but it was all worth the wait when I heard the door click open.

"Alex?"

I heard her kick off her shoes and close the door with a loud slam, dragging herself to the little kitchen that we had. Usually she would be quiet as a mouse and switch to sleepwear as quickly as possible, sneaking in under the covers behind me while I pretended to sleep. But today there was light in the kitchen and I think she understood that I was awake.

I stood up from my chair and walked up to meet her halfway, wanting to show off my pretty dress and the nice meal that I had prepared for us. She walked in, her black suit illuminated in the candle lit kitchen, looking at me in confusion.

"What's all this?"

Her voice was hoarse and tired, almost sounding a little harsh but I decided to ignore it. Her gaze dropped down to my slightly revealing pink dress, her favorite. I knew that she would like it the moment I saw it in my closet. It had a faint blush color with strings on the back and a open design on the front, showing off my cleavage. Usually I didn't wear revealing clothes but for Evelyn I could wear whatever she thought was pretty on me.