Compilation

Adieu dear crush

  Hey, you!

   Yeah, you. Today I've come to all my senses and decided to do something I should've done a long time ago, 6 months to be exact. I have no idea how you'll take it but if I don't do it now I'll potentially go crazy. I don't remember how it all started. I just remember that one day I was talking to you and my switch flipped. I started to have feelings for you, I think I was falling in love. I think I was also getting signals from you, signals that later became unclear, mixed signals to be precise. Yet, I wanted all this to be real so I decided to only pick up the good signals.

   I was happy, I felt like floating all day. Mentally I had a significant other while my reality was completely different; and you, you were my significant other. I was making so many scenarios on my mind. I started dressing up only for you. I even put myself out there, I was more flirty only to you. I was trying to catch your eye. We're you picking up my signals?! I really wanted you to. You're witty, smart, caring, and so easy to talk to. You bring me peace by just looking at you.

   But today, today I'm so tired of the whole charade. I want you to know that I like you and don't take it lightly because I never say these things. Will I make things awkward?! Who knows? The only thing I know is that I just couldn't hold it any longer.

  I want to constantly text you without sounding too high maintenance but because I care for you. I want to be close to you and to hug you after I've been missing you for an entire day. I want you to kiss me and to tell me that everything is going to be alright because I'm next to you. I want to see you smile every morning. I want to share your happiness and your sadness. I like you and I want you to like me back; in my mind I think you already do. Let's hold hands, let's stay in together watching a movie on a rainy day, let's talk about anything and everything. Let the world stop and for a moment be all about you and me. And as I write this I'm getting butterflies in my stomach because just the thought of you makes me so incredibly happy. 

                                                            With love,

                                                                                    Me