Compilation

Brain over mixed feelings

-Let's sit down and talk. Once and for all - said my brain

-Rip off the Band-Aid - I replied

-Have you seen the sparkle on his eyes, the shyness of his soul or the nervousness on his hands?  Have you realized the way he stares at you when you're not looking or how hard it is for him to start a conversation with you?! And you're still wondering if he even notices you. He remembers all the little thing you tell him; things you forget even though you said them. You're the first person he texts for New Year and not just to make you feel special but because you've been on his head the entire day. He is weird with you, he shares his life and preferences with you. And you're still here wondering if he likes you. He's smart, witty and thoughtful. He appreciates all the little things you do for him and he'll go to any lengths for you. He doesn't want to rush this because he really likes you and it scares him the thought of losing you. It scares him how confident you are and it'll be painful to see you walk away. Remember that time you didn't see each other for a couple of days? He went asking for you, he needed to find you and know how you were. And yes, he has said "I love you" a million times already, you're just not listening close enough. But he does, he loves you and loves the way you take the initiative. He loves how you flirt, how you walk, how you talk to others. And you're still asking questions about him. Don't play any mental games, open your eyes. You're missing the sign, you're looking away, you're not seeing the road. He's got your back, he told you several times already. He's ready for you and he knows the time is now. Walk your walk and love again. Stop wondering, stop asking and finally jump to his open arms - my brain told me very impatiently

- You think? - I said doubting every single thing I was being told - I'm not sure, I'm just not. I don't want to look needy. I don't want to mistake his kindness with flirting. I'm scared that he will reject me. I feel like I've said enough, like I've done enough. And yes, there's a little billion things he shares with me and things he does for me but what if, what if they don't mean anything?

- Are you listening to yourself? I understand you have mixed feeling, I do. - said my brain as if it wanted to kill me- but listen to the facts don't listen to my analytical part and more importantly, only listen to your heart. I bet your heart pounds every time he texts you, every time you see him, every time he talks to you. Now, answer me. Don't you feel like its only you two in the world when you talk? And just as a reminder, I've been there.

-Yes, it does - I said silently

- And doesn't that tell you enough? - replied my brain with all the reason of the world