the selection

Chapter 11-Just let me trust you

At around 2am I stopped crying and letting my feelings out. We were still on the floor. Adrian was still there, just hugging me. He didn't let me go once.

"so you wanna tell me about it"

I nodded and I took a deep breath "I-I left because well the day I told you about my forced relationship and rape, my mind immediately went to overanalyzing things. Half of my brain said to trust you, the other half said no, leave him immediately, he will try to hurt you. I barely got any sleep that night, I slept in until two in the afternoon and I 'went to bed at 9'. I throw up anytime my mind overanalyzes shit about myself. I tried to handle it during the banquet not to make a scene, though I couldn't handle it anymore so I ran out, well not really ran out cause i was in a wheelchair, but you get the gist. I-I started crying having thoughts of how stupid I am because of how I pushed away the one group of friends who actually cared for me, when you guys ran after me, it-it I don't know. But my brain immediately reacted to push you all away. I was sacred about getting hurt, burned, and scarred. My brain just went into instinct and for me it's too push everyone away. I-I pushed you away because I-I'm starting to fall in love with you and that scares me shitless"

"It's ok, and I know, no one is mad at you for pushing us away, I didn't tell anyone what you told me, just that you have been betrayed before and if you want to tell them you can, and I'm starting to fall in love with you too"

"yo-you are?"

"yea"

"I'm nothing special"

"don't you ever say that, ok, you are special in every single way. You were the first girl who didn't practically throw themselves at me, you make me laugh, and you know how to fight, how to shoot, and how to fling daggers so accurately, you could fling a dagger so close to my face and not cut my ear off. Also you don't give a damn that I'm a prince at all."

I laughed, "thank you"

"your welcome"

We hugged as I shared tears of joy. "Thank you for believing in me and thank you for not leaving me, you're the first person to ever do that for me"

"like I said before you deserve the world Cypress"

"thanks" I wiped my tears as Adrian left my room quietly and I flopped onto my bed, I smiled and I slept as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I had heard from Adrian that yesterday he had eliminated some people. Those included Bella, Naomi, Isla, Elena, and Anna. We are now down to eleven. The elite will be at ten people, so Adrian has to eliminate one more person. Adrian had confessed that he was starting to fall in love with me too, so I wasn't worried that I was going to be eliminated. I didn't know if he held any of the same feelings he did for me for others, so I was planning on asking him. Today we had a lesson with Hadley. It was one really boring lesson, since we were down to eleven girls, well we started on lessons on how to rule and become queen. 

"so when the queen rules, she will be second in charge of the country unless the first born heir is a girl. Queens have to take over the kingdom when the King is sick or on trips. She needs to be authoritative and kind at the same time. She makes all the celebrations, the afternoon teas, the balls, banquets, garden parties, you name any celebration, the queen handles it. You must maintain foreign allies and affairs. The queen must look confident and calm even when her kingdom is in dire need, or is crumbling apart. The queen must have heirs with the king, obviously. Any questions"

No one raised their hands so Hadley moves forward. "The queen is regal and calm, also one of the selected will be creating a project that will one day create a law that will better the country, just like Queen Amberly and Queen America did once in their husband's selection. You ladies will not start on this type of project yet." Everyone starts to pack up their things as the clock ticks three.