It's Kinda Crazy Really [L.S.]

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The 14th of August, 2020

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Harry's POV

Today marks my first day back on tour and I couldn't be more excited. The adrenaline rush you get while on stage is indefinable. The applause and screams of the crowd causing the whole arena to tremble with the arising emotion. The chanting from the extensive crowd, it's all sensational.

I'm, currently waiting backstage at the Tacoma, Washington Tamocma Dome. I just got off the phone with Emma and Jenny Lewis is on stage opening while I'm checking my last-minute setlist change. I hear Jenny saying her salutations and there's roaring applause before I hear my intro music. I take a deep breath and take my position behind the curtain. The stage lights turn on and I continue to set up my guitar and mic. The intro to Golden sounds throughout the arena as the curtain rises. I keep my gaze trained on my gold Gucci boots. They're an accent to my black suit with gold trims and floral designs. I look up as the beat drops. "Hey!"

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Halfway through the show, I make my way to the B-stage and prepare for the heartfelt songs I'm soon to perform. I collect the bouquets handed to me and I toss them to the sound crew when I pass. I leap up the stairs and adjust my mic. First I perform Sweet Creature, If I Could Fly, and then Fine Line. I don't bother to withdraw my glances up at the VIP box.

"This next song is a song that I haven't sung since 2014, please sing along if you remember. This is Half a Heart," The crowd erupts into screams. I kiss my thumb making sure my pinky is out just a smidge before I start strumming the opening chords. Many people think this is a love song, and it is, but it could be used in a different context.

Mike told me this was one of her favorites that had to do with separation. I thanked him not knowing what song I would've sung in tribute to her if he hadn't said anything. You see, I left her one to calm her anxiety, I know she feels safe around me, so even if my smell embodies her it calms her anxiety. I know she misses me, she's said it several times unintentionally, and I miss her just as much. Maybe it's unhealthy considering we've just met, but it's different.

This feeling we have that gives us this connection to each other almost makes us two halves. The song fits our situation. I'll always be there for her to talk if she ever needed me I could always spare some time. I mean every word I'm singing at the moment.

When I finally finish the song I kiss my thumb one more time before making my way back to the main stage.

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I enter my dressing room exhausted and in need of fresh air. I immediately start changing into shorts and a t-shirt, it's too hot for this. I had taken off my blazer sometime during the concert, I just don't remember when. I hear the door open and I know it's Lou because everyone else knocks. He embraces me from behind and I lean into him. He leans his head on my shoulder and his tiny puffs of breath tickle my neck.

"You know I was kidding about the whole dedicating a song thing right?" he asks chuckling a bit. This causes a small smile to grace my lips.

"Yeah I know, but I wanted to. Don't be jealous, I still serenaded you," I say elbowing him half-heartedly. He squeezes me before pulling away from the embrace.

"You did great, you always do," he complimented before tenderly kissing me. We pull apart when there's a knock at the door.

"Who is it?" I call through the door. I hear the muffled response of 'Jeff' and roll my eyes. "What do you want?" I ask, not in the mood for his antics. I'm honestly stunned he was okay with the whole Emma thing, but that's beside the point.