Are We Damned? ~ Glee

911! Emergency!

TW: Mentions of abuse and a suicide attempt

Sam brought Blaine up to his room. "Maybe you should go to bed, Blainey. You can sleep here if you want, I'll be okay on the couch."

"No, stay," Blaine replied. "Just for now, at least. I want to talk." He sat on the bed, and Sam sat beside him. 

"So... What do you wanna talk about?" Sam asked. "Is everything okay? Because you kinda rushed out of there."

"I don't know, I..." Blaine sighed. "I have to tell you something. Something that I haven't really told anyone before... Besides Santana, and the Warblers, and the people at my first school... Which was a mistake... Anyway... I'm gay. And since Santana knows, she offered to be my beard. That's why she kissed me. But I never wanted her to, I told her no..."

"Beard? What's a beard?"

"My fake girlfriend so people think I'm straight," he explained.

"Okay... I'm sure you have a reason, but why don't you come out? To everyone, I mean."

"Because I'm scared, Sam. I don't want anyone to hate me or anything..."

"We're not gonna hate you. We don't hate Kurt, do we?"

Blaine sighed. "Let me tell you about my past. Back in my old school, everyone somehow found out I'm gay. I don't even know how... They always teased me about it, but... Whatever, right? I could take it. Then the Sadie Hawking dance happened... Me and my friend, who was also gay, went together. It was all fine until the end, we were waiting for our parents... Some kids jumped us. We were beaten up. Bad.

"Our parents finally came and saw us. I made excuses. I told them I was fine. Eventually I came out to them. My mom left, apparently it was coincidental. My dad became physically abusive. Then one day, I couldn't take it anymore. And I did something stupid. I was prescribed antidepressants not too long before this, but I never took them. Then one day, I took all of them. I woke up in the hospital because Cooper found me. I don't know what would've happened without him.

"I transferred to Dalton Academy after that. Cooper paid the tuition and for a dorm. Then I met Kurt... When he went back to McKinley, I had to follow him. And so Cooper hesitantly agreed on the condition that I'd live with him. I can't let him find out and abandon me too..."

Sam didn't know what to say. "Well... No matter what happens, I'm here. Kurt is too. And Finn, probably. A lot of people."

"I know, that's what everyone says..."

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"You keep mentioning Kurt. Are you guys...a thing?"

Blaine nodded. "We are. But...don't tell anyone, okay? Don't even tell him that you know."

"Okay. Our secret."

"Our secret."

"And can you do me one favor?"

"Depends."

"Tell Cooper. He'll support you no matter what, you know."

"Okay. I will." Would Blaine actually say something? He wasn't sure. He didn't want to, but it was probably for the best. He'd try one day. But not yet.