Are We Damned? ~ Glee

All Grown Up

Once again, Blaine tried talking to Cooper. Maybe it was just a bad time, maybe this time would be better. He didn't want to lose Cooper though, that was his biggest fear. He loved his brother more than anything, and he was the only family he had left. It was nice to know he had Santana if Cooper did end up leaving, but he really hoped it wouldn't come to that. Blaine laid on the couch, waiting for Cooper to come home.

"Oh hey, squirt!" Cooper said when he came inside. "Nice to see you. So, what's up? Need to talk?"

Blaine looked over at Cooper and sat up. "Yeah, actually... So, remember when I tried to talk to you the other day, and... You were too busy?"

Cooper nodded. "Practicing for the audition. I didn't get it."

"Oh. Well... Can we talk now?"

"Blaine, who's your favorite director?" Cooper was now scrolling through his phone.

Cooper was ignoring him. So he'd ignore Cooper. "I don't want a girlfriend, Coop. Ever."

"Fantastic. So, director? Or... Do you have a favorite show? Or movie franchise? Something that's not over. I'm looking for my next audition."

"I used to have a boyfriend," Blaine said quietly. "It's complicated now."

"You know what else is complicated?" Cooper asked, putting his phone down. "Show business."

"You're not listening..."

"Do you want ice cream? Let's get ice cream. Then we can watch a movie. But not Transformers, okay? Anything but Transformers."

"I don't want ice cream," Blaine replied. "I don't have much of an appetite... I think I'll just go up to my room. See you tomorrow." And with that, Blaine left.

Cooper had assumed that his reaction was the best he could do. He didn't let what Blaine said change anything, wasn't that what he was supposed to do? He knew he wasn't the best at talking to people, but that seemed like it should work. But it didn't, and he had to fix it. So he took out his phone and typed "how to react to coming out" in the search bar.

All Blaine wanted was to feel seen. But he was just ignored. He decided to leave, to go anywhere but here. He grabbed a backpack and shoved some things in - his phone, a charger, a change of clothes, and a bottle of pills. Then he left, not saying a word to Cooper.

He wasn't sure where to go. He didn't want to bother Kurt, Sam, or Santana, he'd already relied too much on them. So he went to Puck's. That was the only other address he knew. He knocked on the door, hoping someone would answer.

Puck's mother was the one to open the door. "Hello there. Are you Noah's friend? I didn't know he was expecting someone. You can come on in, he's in his room." She stepped aside, allowing Blaine to go in.

He mumbled a quick thank you before going into the basement, where Puck's room was. He knocked on the door and opened it after hearing Puck yell, "Come in!"

"Hey, sorry for just showing up without saying anything," Blaine said. "I just wanted to get out of the house. I didn't know where else to go."

"Hey, it's no problem! Pharmacy's open if you want anything."

"Pharmacy?"

"Yeah. My business!" Puck ran over to his dresser and opened the bottom drawer, then moved a few things out of the way. "Here, you can take what you want, no charge. They're leftovers from the last party anyway, and I don't really like most of this stuff."

"What is it?" Blaine asked, looking in the drawer. There were unlabeled pill bottles, all with something written in sharpie on the caps, and a few plastic bags, also written on, mostly containing powders, although a few had pills, and two bottles of vodka.

"What do you think?" Puck took out one of bags. It had a white powder in it. He also took out a bottle of vodka and poured a little bit into a glass, then added some of the powder, which he quickly mixed in. "Here, drink this. Vodka and a little bit of GHB. Probably better if you go slow. Don't worry, it's not gonna hurt you. And if anything happens, I'm right here." Blaine took a small sip. Nothing seemed weird about it. It was a bit salty if anything, but not too noticeable. He drank a bit more. "You're not gonna feel anything at first. It can take ten minutes to an hour to kick in. If nothing happens in two hours you can have more."

It took about 45 minutes for Blaine to feel something. He wasn't exactly sure what, it was nothing like he'd ever felt before. A mix of a calm relaxation and an intense euphoria. He let his eyes close for a while, just letting the feeling take over. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled.

"How do the feel?" Puck asked.

Blaine sighed. "Something."

"Good to hear. So, you like it?"

Blaine nodded. "Hey, you should ask Kurt to come."

"Why?"

"Because... I want him. Now."

"I think I know what you mean," Puck said quietly. "Why Kurt though?"

"Because he's hot. Like... Super hot. Even more than Sam."

"Okay. So... You're gay or something?"

"Duh."

Puck nodded. "Okay. I don't think you meant to tell me that. So... Maybe you should go to bed. Okay?"

"But-"

"Close your eyes." He put a blanket on Blaine. "Goodnight."

"Goodnight..." Blaine closed his eyes. Puck only hoped he'd be down from his high in the morning.