[Forever...] ~Servamp~ (sleepy ash) Kuro x Reader

Chapter 38

After a long, hard day for the three, Mahiru, Kuro, and (Y/n), made their way through the halls back to their room like they were told. They were silent the whole time.
     (Y/n) walked slowly, though Kuro was behind her so she didn't have much room to lag behind. Her arms were crossed over herself, her chest holding a tight feeling after all that had happened.
     They entered the room, and she went straight to bed, laying on her side. Mahiru and kuro exchanged a mutual look of concern, before the servamp followed behind his subclass. Her sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for a moment, before slowly moving closer to her at the lack of a response.
     "Are you okay..?" He mumbled, placing a hand on her shoulder. The question was probably a dumb one, but he still felt the need to ask.
     She didn't move when he touched her, and for a moment she contemplated whether or not she even wanted to respond. She wasn't okay, not at all. She was terrified and anxious to her core, and the whole feeling was starting to become numb and being replaced with nothing but a sense of shame.
      She felt pitiful. And weak.
     "Am I really this bad...?" She mumbled, not bothering to look at him.
     He furrowed his brows, leaning closer to the girl and rubbing her arm slightly. "What? What do you mean?"
    She tensed a bit at his touch, biting her lip. "Where you have to tend to me..." she mumbled. "Mahiru too... was I always like this?"
"(Y/n).."
   Where was this coming from?
"What's wrong with me??"
     Her voice sounded exasperated, and frustrated, and weak. The girl felt like she was fighting between the urge to burst into tears, and the desire to just succumb to the void and cease to exist all together.
     It took Kuro a solid twenty seconds before he could even think of a way to respond to the girl. He really wasn't expecting this to be the problem (y/n) was facing right now. But who knew if the intense fear of death was any better.
     He removed his hand, but remained close to her, a soft breath escaping him before he spoke.
     "There's nothing wrong with you, (y/n)." That's all he could think of to start, but her continued silence bought him time to try and piece things together. "You're.. scared. Aren't you? Or nervous." He mumbled. "You have the right to be."
Verbally, she didn't give him the acknowledgment he was starting to crave, though her eyes shifted to look over the male with an expression he hadn't really seen before. In a way, she almost looked mad, but not particularly at him. With a roll of her eyes, and a huff as she shifted onto her back into a more open position, did he place the label of frustration on the girl's actions. Her words filled in the rest of the gaps.

"I don't want to be" She muttered, her hands slowly coming up to cover her face. Kuro couldn't help but look down slightly. What was he supposed to do about that? He'd say he would protect her. But, he already failed at that once.
     "...Mahiru wouldn't let anything happen to you."
     "Kuro." She peered up at him, taking in his somewhat solemn expression before looking away. "I don't want to sound mean, but...I don't know if Mahiru has any clue what he's doing."
"Don't say that."
"What? I sure as hell didn't-"
"-(Y/n)."

Something about the servamp's tone told (y/n) to shut her mouth and keep it that way for the time being. She couldn't help but stare at him for a moment, a little caught off guard and wondering what exactly she had done to cause him to cut her off like that. What was wrong?
He wasn't looking at her anymore. He had his eyes closed, a deep breath slowly escaping his lungs as he opened his eyes once again.
Now wasn't the time to get upset. Not when (y/n) was hurting.
Unfortunately for him though, his subclass could already tell something was wrong. And it wasn't very easy to convince her otherwise once she noticed.

A gentle touch to his cheek kept his thoughts from drifting too far. (Y/n) was sitting up now, gently caressing his cheek with her thumb, before letting her hand fall back to the bed.
"I shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry."
He shook his head slightly, "it's fine"
"I didn't mean to make it sound like... you know."
Like things would end up how they did the last time.