Yep, Still Extra! (Kiligserye Book 2)

Chapter 11

Ang tahimik ng biyahe namin.

Hindi nagsasalita si Sir Tristan and wala rin naman akong maisip na sabihin sa kaniya. Anong sasabihin ko diba? Eh magkaibigan sila ni Chuck. Malamang kampihan niya yun, magsama silang mga lalaki.

"I'm sure he's got his reasons." Diba? Tama ako.

At hindi ko na napigilan dahil napairap na lang ako at tumingin sa labas looking at the cars that pass us by.

Tumigil kami sa isang stoplight.

He says, "Did you just roll your eyes at me?"

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig, I look at him and he's looking at me with his eyebrows up.

"Ay hindi sir. Hindi naman sa ganun. Napareact lang ako kasi yan din ang sinabi ko kay Chuck kanina."

He smiles, "At last, she talks."

Ini-cross ko ang arms ko sa chest ko, "So, trap pala yun."

He drives nang mag-green na ang light, "I'm just trying to save you from yourself."

That gets my attention, "Paano?"

He starts, "I don't want you to think too much in that head of yours. You're making up scenarios, overanalyzing things, making it worse in your head than it really is."

He continues, "Just rest. When you get home just go to bed and don't think about it. Lahat naman ng questions mo will be answered tomorrow. There's still tomorrow at hindi pa tapos ang pag-uusap ninyo, I assume."

Napatango lang ako, "I know. Sa totoo lang pagod na rin ako mag-isip eh. I know makakapag usap kami ng maayos tomorrow. And really, I don't want to think about it, pero I'm still bothered by one fact."
He looks at me, "What's that?"

I get sad again, "He didn't say sorry."

I sigh, "I repeat the conversation in my head, inuulit ulit ko, pilit kong iniisip kung na-miss ko lang ba or what, pero parang hindi talaga. Parang wala talagang apology doon sa pag-uusap namin. Wala ring pasasalamat sa pag-iintindi ko sa position niya. Because that's exactly what I did, what I'm still doing. I'm trying to be patient and understand his situation. But where was the understanding of mine? "

He stays quiet pero after a while he says, "I can't answer for him Andi, I don't know what happened tonight or kung anong pumasok sa utak niya that he did what he did, pero I know Chuck. He's not a bad guy, he's one of the best guys I've met. I've never known him do anything that would jeopardize his relationships. He's not the type."

He stops then starts again, "But he's not perfect. No one is. I think he screwed up this time, and by the looks of it siguro it's the first time he screwed up with you. He's been a great boyfriend diba?"
He's not wrong so I nod.

"He's going to make mistakes, Andi. And if he screws up you're going to tell him he did, don't wait for him to realize it for himself. We're men, we're not as sensitive as women..."

I look at him with daggers in my eyes. Sensitive?

He laughs a little, "Not that type of sensitive, I mean minsan nagiging what's that word – manhid? We become insensitive to the people around us, especially women."

He continues, "Hindi lahat ng lalaki sinasadya yan, it's just that sometimes women are more sensitive to things that matter and we need that extra push to try harder to be better. Kailangan lang ni Chuck na sabihin mo sa kanya yan that it bothers you para maintindihan niya, para hindi na niya gawin ulit."

May point naman, hindi naman talaga kalakihan ang understanding ng mga lalaki pagdating sa sensitivities ng pagiging couple. I just think I am expecting too much from Chuck kasi I've never known him to screw up before. Siguro nga kailangan ko lang siya kausapin ng maayos para maintindihan niya na nasasaktan ako at affected ako sa ginawa niya.

Malamang naman he's not trying to hurt me intentionally.

I nod, "You're right. Kakausapin ko na lang siya tomorrow."

He smiles, "There you go."

Then I roll my eyes, "Magpapa-appointment muna ako sa assistant niya baka fully booked na schedule niya tomorrow eh."

He laughs, "That's a good idea. He's a busy guy."

Malapit na kami sa bahay ko nang naglakas ng loob na ako magtanong sa kanya, since wala na naman kami sa office at tingin ko naman friendly conversation na ito dahil binibigyan na niya ako ng relationship advice.

"Speaking of schedules..." I start.

"Parang wala pa akong nabu-book na date para sa'yo Sir, or may iba ka bang calendar for that."

He keeps driving pero may smile sa boses niya, "Are you asking about my lovelife, Miss Martinez?"

Ay teka, baka hindi pa kami friendly masyado para pag-usapan ito.

"Ay hindi naman Sir. Kasi maraming nagtatanong sa office, dami yata may crush sa inyo doon pero syempre hindi ko sinasagot yung mga ganung tanong kasi unprofessional yun, so sabi ko lang sa kanila hindi ko yun business at personal niyong buhay yon so wala kaming pakielam." Syempre ninerbyos na naman ako kaya puro kagagahan ang nasabi ko.

He laughs, "Well, the next time they ask just tell them I'm too busy to date."

Tiningnan ko lang siya, sarap sabihing "Sayang ang lahi mo!"

Pero siyempre hindi ko yun sinabi, "So wala ka talagang date date sir? Ganun? What do you do during your spare time?"

He smiles, "I keep myself busy with other things. Marami namang ibang bagay to do than to date."

I nod, pero siyempre hindi ko naman maintindihan kasi yun ang hobby ko. Parang feeling ko wala akong ibang pwedeng gawin kundi magtrabaho at umawra at lumovelife.

Nakarating na kami sa bahay at bumaba na ako ng kotse, yumuko ako bago isara ang pinto, "Salamat sa ride Sir. Pasensiya na ulit sa abala."

He smiles, "No problem Andi. Sleep well."

Tumango lang ako at sinara ang pinto, unti-unti nang lumayo ang kotse ni Sir Tristan pero I'm still looking at the road he took.

I know he's right sa mga sinabi niya tungkol kay Chuck pero I can't shake the feeling na parang this is not going to be over and it's not going to be easy.