19/04/18 -continued.
"my life has always been stressful i'd say," i started off shuffling around a bit to get comfortable, "i was never in a comfortable situation to do with money, i had to work many part time jobs to help out my mom and so did she, mine and my moms relationship got worse and worse by days due to us arguing all the time because she'd throw all her stress onto me, going to school was like my escape,"
i turned to look at him to see if he was still listening, and sure enough he was.
"continue,"
"i told her i want to go to new york for school but she wanted me to stay and that made a whole stop to our relationship, she won't speak to me at all even though i do send her money every week to still help her out, i told her my plan was to get a good education and a good job to make us and my sister live comfortably but she took it as betrayal and hasn't spoken to me since i've moved. My situation with money isn't as bad since my part time job does pay enough but having to send money and worry about the college loan generally brings a lot of stress, the reason i get stressed out a lot is due to my anxiety issues and smoking helps me to calm down,"
i took deep breath after i finished.
wow.
i never really expected me to open up to somebody like that.
i looked at him to see his reaction and he was staring back at me.
i pressed my lips together waiting for a response.
he nodded in a way that comforted me.
"i'm not really good with feelings but i can see what your going through, the only advice i have is to continue doing what your doing right now and get that good job to support your mum and sister, i'm sure she'll understand once you do, and you should defiantly cut out smoking if you have problems with anxiety, smoking may make it better for that one second but it actually increases your anxiety,"
i stared into his eyes,
damn he's the most useful person i've met.
"i'm going to try," i smiled.
