9/14/18
the smoke ran through the air, it ran through my lungs.
it's been so long.
i don't even know how to feel.
but,
it feels like i've just had a breath of air in a long time, as if i've been suffocating this whole time.
and the smoke is the fresh air.
i looked down at the cigarette and contemplated if i should take another puff, in which i did.
i let the smoke once again rummage through my lungs , i closed my eyes to feel this clam feeling rush through me like a drug.
bang
all of a sudden, there was a bang on the floor,
i swiftly turned around in shock, for my eyes
to be met
with jaehyun's.
my heart stopped.
my breath stopped.
his eyes were latched onto mine.
filled with emotion, covered in a thick layer of tears.
but suddenly he quickly blinked and all of it went away.
cold.
they turned ice cold.
i looked down to see a box of doughnuts all over the floor and then back up at him.
then.
my heart started ti rapidly beat through my chest and panic set in me.
it was as if in that moment time had stopped and the very second it came back.
"jaehyun-"
but before i could say a word to him, he turned and walked out.
slamming the door shut.
he walked away.
