20/04/18
it's been a day since he opened up to me.
and i'm going to meet him.
at our usual spot.
he said it was special.
these days i try to go out as much as possible it helps a lot with the cravings.
i've also been prescribed some medicine which helps.
i would never of thought that i'd be coming off cigarettes so soon.
but seeing as it wasnt so long since i started i can end this a bit quicker.
i want to end it.
anyway.
i can see him leaning against the shedding white walls.
i smiled at him once his eyes met mine and he sent a sweet smile back.
i quickly ran up to him excitedly.
being around him gave me energy even though he was a quiet person.
"hi,"
"hi,"
i stood infront of him, his body practically towering over mine.
he looked down at me before smiling and taking something out of his coat pocket.
shit he's gonna kill me.
my reflexes spoke up and i quickly slapped whatever was in his hand on the floor and stood over with my foot so he doesn't reach it.
he looked down at my foot.
"what did you just do," he said still looking down.
i raised my eyebrows and lifted my foot, and crushed on the floor was two cigarettes.
"oh," i pressed my lips together, "i thought you were going to kill me,"
"fair enough," he said as he pulled out another two, "good thing i brought spares just in case."
i smiled sheepishly and he handed it over to me trying to fight another smile slipping from his lips.
"this is going to be our last cigarette," he sighed .
our? a little spark of happiness lit in me.
"our?"
"yes, i'm going to quit," he said, i could tell it was going to be hard for him.
i stared into his eyes as if i was inspired by him as he took out a lighter, he took the cigarette out of my hand and placed it into my mouth before lighting mine and then his.
i inhaled the smoke, letting it run through my blood, i craved this to the point it felt like i was going to die, but now i was at comfort, knowing that this was my last one didnt hurt.
so i let go, and i blew out.
i glanced up at him he inhaled the smoke and didn't blow it out.
"aren't you going to blow it out?" i questioned.
he looked down at me and all of a sudden i felt his hand push against my back and then.
his lips were pressed against mine.
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i promise this is the last long ass chapter
